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2011-03-10T21:26:00.002+08:00

Whenever I think too much, I feel like I'm going to collapse.

That's why I don't like to think.
And that's why I don't like to do things that make me think unless it's compulsory.

= that's it. =

beck and food

2010-01-20T21:18:00.002+08:00

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今天，回家的路上，我叫我妈教我方言。她说，要学，就要用听的来学。说着说着，我们就谈到我父母的爸妈。说着说着，就说到奶奶和婆婆的事。说着说着，就说到奶奶煮的饭菜超好吃的。想着想着，我想到，我从小，就没吃过奶奶做的饭，婆婆做的饭，我才吃过几次而已。婆婆和奶奶过世几久了，我才想到这点，想着想着，感到好伤心，觉得好可惜，生前没好好珍惜他们，觉得，好像吃她们做的饭菜。

beck is a good story, but ryuusuke is too serious. they're all too serious.

2009-03-29T10:49:00.000+08:00

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o......o t..t puffy died. ami too. and so did the tail chaser. all because of the water.

2009-01-31T23:05:00.002+08:00

= that's it. =

my first ever ever ever mahjong game and i gamed. XD

haha. XD
WII is fun. XD

WII expedition 1: Sonia's house.

WII expedition 2: Yuyan's House.

WII expedition 3: Soomin's House.

Technically, expedition 2 and 3 weren't supposed to be WII expeditions. XD were supposed to be New Year visits. and they were, only that we ended up playing WII as well. XD

haha underlining statement: WII was and is fun. XD and tiring. >...<

Thanks you all for inviting me over and teaching me how to play. XDDD

and so. HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR EVERYONE! even though it's already the 6th day of it. XD

2008-11-26T21:39:00.002+08:00

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i think terrapins have a huge learning capacity, unlike some people. it can climb out of it's tub by itself and climb to my piano without anyone helping or noticing. and they dance to the music too.

2008-11-15T17:35:00.002+08:00

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the pufferfish escaped from it's confinement tank through the breathing holes. no wonder it refused to eat it's earthworms, dieting to fit through the hole..

and the guppy gave birth to 5 baby guppies. it was a hellofatime trying to scoop them out of the big tank and putting it into the confinment tank to prevent it being eaten by the other guppies or even the other fish... plants were uprooted, dirt was uprooted, the fries were darting here and there, and it took a long time to finally catch all of them. the last one was caught at around 12 am... >...< and so we're waiting for the other guppy to give birth and have another frenzy trying to scoop them up again.

so can't wait for A's to be really over.

2008-11-09T21:35:00.000+08:00

= that's it. =

And so...

Tune-in 2008 is here again!

'Tune In' is an event where the Anglo-Chinese Junior College Band welcomes ALL graduating secondary four band members to join us for a day of fun-filled activities and games. It is also a rare opportunity for people to experience what it feels like to be a member of the ACJC Concert Band.

During the early part of the year, the band held a successful 'Tune In' which saw more than 100 participants from a diverse range of secondary schools joining us for a day of exciting activities and music making. Participants had the opportunity to mingle with other band members from different schools and also with ACJC band members to learn more about being a part of the rich heritage of the Anglo-Chinese Junior College Band.

Banking on the success of the previous 'Tune In', the band will like to present,

Tune In 2

Day/Date: Tuesday, 18th November

Time: 8.30am - 5.00pm

Venue: Anglo-Chinese Junior College

Interested participants are encouraged to approach their respective Band/Drum majors regarding the event. Please get your Band/Drum majors to contact Shermaine at 90488967 to confirm places by 15th November.

Alternatively, if you have further queries regarding Tune-In 2, please feel free to contact Alson at 93259866 or Shermaine.

We look forward to seeing you there!

2008-11-09T20:56:00.001+08:00

= that's it. =

Let's play a funeral march for the poor Plecostomus which died at the hands of carnivorous African fish in my aunt's tank.

2008-10-23T21:36:00.004+08:00

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Sheesh. PW more important than A Level's?! maybe. "but i booked this room for PW" and all you hear is chalet planning. NOTHING to do with pw at all.

LT3 was booked for SEA i believe. and we didn't even chase them out. and they who were graciously allowed to stay with the hopes that they keep quiet enough for us to do our SBQ. and ok. whisper whisper, ups decibels, talk talk, up decibels, shriek shriek. shhh!!! they say. okok. and so. the one who says shhh!!! is actually, the most noisy one. oh great.

and then. _d_d__ comes in. and makes more noise! yay! not. and then. where does the topic go, but to band. hm. i wonder why. and overhears..

_d_d__ (summary): so what if you appeal through cca? you can just say you served your year's worth of service. and why do you need to practice so much anyway? just play when the whole group comes together la.

fuck. you think it's that easy? i'd like to see you try and be good at it without the practice. i wonder how ccas get good results without the students working on it. and i wonder what gives the appealed student the rights to only serve one year when you HAVE to serve your full term. not just one or two years, but your full term. i wonder how you came to be in the school in the first place. by your credit? no. by the cca. and the teachers and instructors and the seniors who believed in you and vouched for you. believed in you to be responsible. and that, in addition to studying, includes being loyal to your cca. i wonder, _d_d__, what happened to tenacity, passion and integrity in the pursuit of truth. how can you teach your students to behave this way. and so the very aggitated me stormed out of LT3 into the toilet to calm down. and went back smiling.

and when alex asked them to keep their volumes down, hoping that it'd actually turn the volume down, i wonder why there's no attempt to quieten down.

_d_d__ (summary): oh. i booked this room (LT3) for pw.

but sir! we had this room booked for history.

_d_d__ (summary): oh you go check with GO la.

yadayada and blahblah... and what gives you the rights to laugh at the J2s who are really working for A Level's? even if you claim pw is important, is it more important than the rest of the A level's? and what gives you the rights to laugh at us? "it is so not funny. soooo not funny." with fists clamped and all. thank goodness that colin came in right at that moment and that alex and eileen were calm. otherwise, i'd probably get into freaking trouble. thank goodness they told me to calm down.

but what gives him the right to do this to us? what gives him the rights to actually disturb the studying J2s? that he booked the room FOR PW and thus have a right to make noise, even when there are students studying? that he is a teacher? i really don't understand how people like him can become teachers. there's no good example. telling a student to just drop a responsibility he is obliged to do? saying that A level's overall not as important as a measely PW? comeon! and what rights do you have, to justify that you have the rights to the room because you booked it for pw, And at no point do you discuss pw, but instead, CHALET? since when was chalet pw? since when? i say since when?

i really nearly just went up to him and do the thing that my dad always does when things that are not right happens. things that are injustices, things that simply defy morals. there was the urge to just talk him down. i know i have the ability to, but since i was still a student, and a exam candidate with my first paper next thursday, not a good thing to do. at all. you never know what these kind of people will do to you, especially with their abusing of their power and status.

poor are the oppressed and powerless.

my my. what an unequal world...

2008-10-17T23:17:00.002+08:00

= that's it. =

we've got a puffer fish!!

yesh, it's that cute. when it swims, it's tail closes, but when it stops, the tail opens.

and chiangchiang! it's carnivorous. =...=

it nips the tails of the two remaining guppies in the fish tank, and it's turning against it's good friend the plecostomus and trying to nip it's tail too. the poor guppy's tail grew out when the puffer fish was busy eating earthworms, but the now fussy puffer fish refuses to eat unfreash earthworms and start nipping their tails again. thus, the beautiful long fan tailed plae colored graceful guppy with really nice spots that changes color when it moves has now a jaggered tail and the poor blue mosiac delta guppy's tail is so short that it probably flips it two times faster than before in order to swim as fast. and well, the plecostomus is so fast that it rarely gets nipped in the tail, but it's dangerous..... bad puffer fish. but it's damn cute. the piece of junk wood in the tank has this opening at the top and there is where the puffer fish retreats to sleep. stupid fish. but it's adorable.

http://fish.orbust.net/dwarfpuffer.html

the terrapin grew to become a red eared slider turtle. (in what way is THAT a terrapin!) its huge. it's shell maybe as long as my forearm.. the big one's the female, called bian3 bian3 (flat flat) cos of her concave shell. duno why it's like that, probably because the other one climbs on her shell. the other one's smaller, but still huge.it's called yuan2 yuan2 (round round) and it's a male turtle. entertaining things. bb loves vegetables and yy hates them. however, bb is super fussy and refuses to eat the hard parts of the vegetables, like the stem what knots. yy just refuses to eat them. but yy loves shrimps. and so does bb. when you feed shrimps, you've gotta get one person to feed bb one shrimp at a time while you pour in some shrimp for yy to eat. and does he eat quickly. why you have to do this it that bb is so huge that she can block yy off from the shrimps if you simply pour the shrimps in, so yy won't get to eat them. poor thing. same as food pellets. you've gotta turn them opposite ways and pour food in separately. have i said this? they're super fussy eaters. and they're super musical. when ever someone plays the piano, they start dancing. when the wind chime rings, they dance again. when someone sings, they dance also. as long as there's music, they dance. and no, it's not a responding to sound thing. they don't respond when you're simply talking or laughing. and they're super crawlers. my mum left them in the balcony and closed the balcony door, leaving a small gap, so that they could run around free in the balcony for awhile. BUT. when she went back to the balcony, they disappeared! and where were they? one was knocking on my door and the other was sitting in for my sister's chinese tuition. what wonderful crawlers. and mighty fast too. try to catch them and they run like free.. as free as a turtle can with it's short legs anyway. in addition, they are amazing climbers.we barricaded their roaming area with heaps and heaps of newspaper once, thinking 'that should do it'. they won't be able to escape. and when we come back, where are they? roaming the house. again. apparently, they climbed the newspapers, half way up to my knee high and made their escapes. scary things they can be... and they're huge. nd still growing i suppose. apparently they can grow up to 30 inches, which is... .762m... freak. that's damn long. shoots.my my... it's living in some unoptimum condition with no basking spot and no huge water mass for it to swim in... so sorry my dear terrapin turtles.. welsh, the miaomi is thinking of releasing it in some pond or something, but it's sad... noooo. well she's been thinking about it for maybe about 4 years? haha. well, hope it doesn't happen. ish going to make the ridiculously free sister to make the 'tank' a optimum place for it to stay, with basking spots etc. =)) if successful. =..=

and so. the animal report is done.

2008-10-12T14:46:00.002+08:00

= that's it. =

i wanna eat ice cream.

soft serve ice cream. MOF ice cream. Marvelous cream ice cream. cold rock ice cream.

ICE CREAM!!!!!COME TO ME!!!

envy and possessiveness are not good traits.

2008-10-12T00:42:00.003+08:00

= that's it. =

instrumental music.
consisting of rhythm, time, form and structure, melody, harmony, variations....
what makes it so different from other art forms? like dance, art, drama, vocal music even...

i used to think that i hated choir and singing and drama and dance and art..

i suppose, now that it's not a matter of me hating it, but rather me not knowing it and thus thinking i hate it.

i used to hate dance so much that i hated exaggerated movements, preferring not to move as much as possible, move as simply as possible. Even being very conscious about how i move and all, feeling very upset, embarrassed or even angry at myself for moving more than necessary. I really hated moving. seeing my sisters take up dance lessons and myself not having the opportunity to experience dance at a 'professional' level made me envious maybe.

drama as well. i hated it so much. maybe because of the flamboyance (regardless action, speech, movement or anything) associated with it, but i really hated it. i hated displaying myself to the audience, yet i yearned for recognition.

i hated my voice. maybe i still do. i hated it so much that i changed it. i changed the way i say things, the tone of my voice, even my voice itself, how it sounds. the pitch, the timbre. i changed it so much that i don't even remember how my voice really sounds like. every time i feel like my voice has a whining quality or goes higher, i'd immediately feel irritated and change it. it changes so frequently. by extension, i hated singing. the requirement of girls to have high singing voices pissed me off and i looked to the carpenters, cos she had a really beautiful low voice. but then, my kid vocal cords couldn't sing that low.and so i hated singing. because i could not. i tried to speak as little as i could as well.

i hated drawing as well. it never turned out as i wanted it to. the things i drew always lack something. something that made it not turn out the way i want, the style i want. i loved looking at beautiful things nd commenting about them. i could tell when things were not beautiful and sometimes, could tell what was wrong and how to change it, but i couldn't do it nonetheless. there was art class and i supposedly did pretty well in them, praising myself because i saw my work as more beautiful than others', but there was never praise from others. the teachers sticking in their hands to meddle in my art made me freaking pissed as well. i wanted it my way. i didn't want them to touch it, but i didn't say it, and they did anyway.

they say you can dance, sing, act, draw even if you don't take lessons or are no good at it, but i begged to differ. i assumed that in order to have the rights to do something, you need to have the ability, knowledge or expertise to do so. if you don't have knowledge of how to do it or even about it, you have no rights to do it. especially if you can't do it well.

recognition i suppose is very important to everyone.. without the acknowledgement from others, people may (or may not) become adverse to certain activities. like how when we had to perform a play in secondary school for some exam (i suppose, not being able to remember), i remember trying my best to perform my role well. but even when the teachers praise one outstanding one, and say good job to the rest, i felt really upset. maybe envious even, that i was not the outstanding one being praised. i suppose i'm quite a selfish person, but that kind of praise of good job just places one with the rest of the flock of sheep.

one solution would be for the teachers to praise each and every student with the same thing. but then what will happen to motivation? it'll be gone for the truly good students. and what will happen to capitalism? hrmph.

this solution appears to focus on not hurting each student, but wouldn't that hurt the students who truly need or deserve the praise?

i once thought that teachers should know each and every students' good points and weaknesses, to praise each and every student as they deserve it, not merely a good job, but a personalised praise. but then, what will happen to the teachers? they'd overwork i suppose.

there isn't truly a method to ensure everyone doesn't get hurt is there? i suppose that for one peron to benefit, another has to be stripped of that benefit. true, this view can be overturned, but i'd like to see the day when it happens. when it happens, there'd be the void of certain emotions such as anguish, irritation, envy etc. sounds good? what can be good whe you don't have anything bad to compare it with. as John the Savage (Brave New World) said defiantly: "all right, then, i claim the right to be unhappy."

but who would claim that right willingly? that's why there are people suffering from depression, etc, cos they can't accept that they have to claim the unhappiness in order to really experience what is true happiness.

i suppose i haven't really learnt how to claim the right to be unhappiness. i suppose that i've been trying to lead my life happy all round, getting irritated at things that don't go my way, at people who don't suit my taste, at situations that i hate, of things that i don't want to do.

but i'm trying i guess.
learning to speak out has been a painful process,
learning to sing out has been excruciating,
learning to accept my drawings/doodles has been a process full of shame when i look at the end product,
learning so that i won't hate it and will accept it,
learning to 'dramatise', to move naturally, to be natural is still an awkward process,
but i'm trying. at least i think i am.

these process i guess will have to continue for a long time throughout my life.
but the processes are hindered when things change. when things change, i get flustered, awkward, uncomfortable and all, and i'll end up withdrawing, to stop expressing myself. makes me really unhappy, but i feel that alot of the time i refuse to acknowledge that i have to accept that unhappiness. and that makes me annoyed to realise that this will only serve to sink me deeper into unhappiness. not a good thing.

i'm sure that many people feel the same way too, and or can't do anything about it. know that you're not the only one. i'm still trying to find a tied rope to pull myself out of this quagmire and walk away from it. when i do, i'll post it, but until then, know that you're not the only one.

well, it is all a matter of the mind, as the piaopi says. it is. but without the conditions to allow the mind to be happy, the mind has a difficult time trying to escape from unhappiness. can a person, fallen and sucked in by the quagmire pull himself out by himself? no. he needs something he can hold on to, whether a solid branch, a rope, better still, the aid of someone close by, but not so close that they fall in too. can a person in a quagmire seek the help of another person in the quagmire? no. they'll probably sink even faster. so, it's not all a matter of the mind, my dear piaopi. a person stuck in a quagmire needs help. not just the mind.

the miaomi says to do whatever you want, yet she interferes. my dear miaomi, it's not just a simple do whatever you want. it's a do whatever you want the makes you happy and satisfied. and without the interference of another person. maybe advice, but never interference. never ever interference. advice must be given i believe. never put down the ideas of another person. when i say i want to do something, don't put me down. i know i'm not good enough, but don't put me down. i can do this. the miaomi claims she never sees me doing it, but i do it when you don't see it so you can't say i'm irritating you with it.. when real passion comes, it's often misunderstood as a fad. especially if the passion is in something unsual or something the miaomi doesn't believe in. my dear miaomi, you really can't put it down..

it's hard to make choices when faced with these kind of problems, but it's not use trying to escape from it or blaming others, cos it'll just make matters worse. so make up your mind already, you idiot. life isn't simple and you shouldn't give in no matter what. so stop being an idiot and work and decide already.

i'm really sorry. don't forgive me.

2008-10-02T17:17:00.001+08:00

= that's it. =

and i wonder what she did.

focus not on the white rabbit but the cat.

2008-09-03T13:12:00.010+08:00

= that's it. =

nyaaahhhhh!!!

Marvelous cream..... >......<
gyahhhhh. was good except i didn't like the milk cream ice cream and the mangoes and strawberries were abit too sour. but.... GYAHHHH.... it's gooddd. >.....<

i ate #13 i think. and em ate #2. wanted to try the premium parfaits, but was expensive and small.... >..< thus, the poor student has to go for sth w more ingredients ie. the mango temptation. we took damn long to choose la. number out everything, then slowly one by one cancel out.... a long and ardous journey t'was.

and therefore, it's here! =) :
#B1-04 Citylink Mall (City Hall MRT Station)
One Raffles Link
Singapore 039393

gyahaha. it was a food trip with not much food eating ytd. more of walk and drool over all the food. BUT. ONE DAY, IS SHALLS BE RICHS ANDS GOS EATS EVERYTHINGS AT ONE GOS! that i suppose will never happen... =..=. Cocoa Tree was huge, Shokudo was tempting, Ochacha was also tempting, the chocolates looked super good, Waraku looks like it has good dessert, what else... many many many..... OwwwwO i wanttttt.... gyurrrr. next time. next time..

took near 2 hours to walk around Raffles City basement and Citylink and then Marina Square? and finally, at near 1 pm, lunch. at Kenny Rogers. i suppose i haven't eaten that since i was in Malaysia in Genting a long time ago.. ordered the set meal, some fried chicken thing with soup, and was going to order 3 side dishes to share, which took a long time after choosing the 2nd one, when the very nice waitress told us there was 2 sides per meal! and so took a little (and i mean little) time to decide on the third. and so we ended up with 2 muffins (which i love, the sort-of-crunchy outside and sweet inside wit corn. but the inside is a bit too soft, to the point that it disintegrates easily), 2 meals, with 2 soup (one clear and one creamy chicken soup), 2 drinks (1 ice tea and 1 sarsi. gyahh.. sarsi!!!) and 4 sides (mac and cheese, some weird pasta thingy, potato salad and uhm... i can't remember. another hot side dish AH! potato salad..). the mac and cheese tastes different, but it's fine. the potato salad was good, the chicken was juicy and the weird pasta had a weird taste which i didn't like. and the potato salad had corn in it. the sauce had real chicken taste in it though, not like other places. twas a good and highly filling lunch, all for $11.50 per meal. SUPER worth it.

after that's when we went to mug history in McDonalds at ard 2? and em was like the kindergarten teacher teaching a story to a student. not to say i'm a kindergarten kid, but you know, the teaching method is sth like that. took until nearly 4 to finish RF content. we gave up doing practice questions half way through other JCs Qn1.

and then... the miraculous thing. the outrageous thing. the supreme thing! MARVELOUS CREAM!

yes. i ate marvelous cream after mugging. not before lunch. yep. t'was good. >w< nyahhh. the service was good too. although it's a mix and match ice cream place like cold rock, but the ice cream flavours are more tame and sophisticated-like. and the ingredients were more normal as in no sweets like maltesers what knots. got fruits, dolce (which i suppose is pastries. the sponge 'short' cake is good), gelee (jelly), macaron (no idea what that is), nuts (which i detest) and sauce. yep. so it's like a high class cold rock which is better. and they don't slam the ingredients. they cut up (cut up, not chop up) the fruits and sponge cake very nicely after picking the ingredients up with the right hand and the left hand behind their back (like waiters and waitresses, looks super professional). and then it;s nicely mixed in with gentle mixes, unlike cold rock, and then add the fresh cream (which i suppose is like whipped cream? except it's not in the ready made packaging?) NICELY and fold and put in the cup (put.....). gyahhh... i'm so going to work there if there's job vacancy after A's. nyahhh...... =w= ya. the junior cup is 80ml, looks quite small, but is satisfying. and it's not that cold rock is not good, but that cold rock is more informal and wild and yep. wild. they're both good...

and we went off to prints to find em's notebook.

we wanted to eat the ice cream with sheree... but sheree had tuition and so came after we finished eating. -...- a waste, but yes. and em went off, and we roamed and roamed to find a new pair of shoes for her, from Robinson's to URS (on the way which we met michelle and edwin, who didn't see nor hear us) to Pretty Fit (which is expensive considering it's brand and not considering it's location) to Charles and Keith and back to URS.

and we roamed and roamed the basement, where we went to AnBC some stationary shop, where we saw disney organizers. the designs were nice. and there were some flower/lace kinda themed ones. but... the nicest one was... the Alice organiser. it was uber nice. the small one was $23 sth and the bigger one $27 sth? but it was really nice and all. but it was expensive also... TwT but it was really nice and all. and so roamed in the shop for a while more and found... pencil caps! finally! nice pencil caps. although it's $2.05 for 4, but it's nice. >..< and then surprise surprise we met michelle and edwin again. and they didn't see us again until sheree called out. XD ohohoh. then there was the cat dangling thing for phones, the fortune cats, it's super nice, butttt. it was $8. no way. not after i got mine for free and mine was originally priced at $5 max.

we went mph too. and there was lotsa lotsa books we wanted to read, but had either no time, or no money to read.

ta-dah! and so, we went to collect shaheera at the top of the mrt escalator to raffles city and went down to bk. and then we meet eugene and then mel. and went in to break fast at 7.10. XD yay. break fast. XD no... food overload...... >..<

dinner dinner dinner, buy sweets, then turandot! rushed all the way to esplanade, almost late, but not late. seats were traumatising-ly high.. wells.

'Liu's voice is super clear.... and very nice. the loud and sudden soft and crescendo on some of the high notes really .. what's the word? i don't know, but it was good and touching. the claps for her was really huge. the largest, can compete with ping, pong and pang's.

'Turandot' was really good as well. her vibratos are like woah... (was wondering if rosalind tan was one of the cast for a moment there.) but the thing was the pitch was not very clear. maybe it's just that my ears are not trained enough, but for the segments that i was familiar with (ie certain melodies), it was fine. anyway, when there was the curtain call, didn't know whether to clap or not. not clap b/c turandot's character is horrible and she caused the death of an innocent or rather, many innocents. but the death of liu is particularly sad. but to clap because she's so powerful (imagine holding a note above the orchestra, which is playing loud by the way, and still be heard loud and clear). so ended up clapping for her.

'Calaf son of Timur' (where's that i wonder..) was good too (of course he has to be. otherwise why would he be the lead?), but also wondering whether to clap for the same reasons as above, but yep. clapped. x|

ping, pong and pang.. haha nothing to say really. such cute characters. XD entertaining, yet quite poor thing as well.. can't go home to Honan. classic. x) like one person split into three. it's like they're essestially the same, but ping as the main person, pong and pang as the splits in his personality. really. they're entertaining, but sad as well.

the orchestra was impressive. although they had glitches here and there (who doesn't), there was the power in it. the force of the wall of sound was solid. so solid. the flute was solid and powerful, the horns were nyahhh... the whole orchestra was solid and powerful, whether loud or soft. and the loud and the soft are really really really really distinct and obvious, [gyahhh! my cat just came off the phone.repairs.done.] and when certian instruments are supposed to come up, they really come out and they blend back in after that. and it wasn't as if i strained my self to listen to the pros and cons of the orchestra, but it just comes. and it's not like they over power the singers as well. the sound was well balanced. loud enough to express and be heard and create the mood, yet not so that it covers the singers' voice.

but there's the bad thing about cheap tickets at high spots. there are some singers whom you can't hear clearly. the king on his throne in act 2 was quite soft. no idea whether is he sing soft or is because he sit so high up that the sound cannot cross the top part of the stage to reach the toppest layers of the hall. probably the second.

the whole chorus was really good as well. the halo plus holy light plus organ sound? ya. it was somewhat like it. the sound was really good. although i didn't understand a word of what they were singing (having to rely on the subtitles on the sides all the time), the sound was heavenly. halo, holy light and white robes. >..<

and the total sound quality, chorus, singers plus orchestra added up really brought out the music. the heart wrenching-ness of certain scenes, the majesty of the endings, the feeling where it just catches your breath away, where there's just the feeling that says, it's really good. it's so good. the music is so good. it's really good and really hard to experience. or at least that's what i feel and felt, considering that it's my first opera ever. puccini is such a genius. although the story line is abit ..., but the music is WOAH! quality! i want to be a genius and create stuff like this too! >..<

yep.

and so.

next food trip.

18th september. XD yay for food. cries for my wallet. >..< haha. ttfn then!

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and i forgot to comment about the MOF desserts in Lot 1 until just. haha. ate MOF desserts on friday, 290808. green tea ice cream! wit red bean in side and vanilla soft serve! and dango! and kanten jelly! and peach and strawberry and cherry and and. i forgot. oishiiii!!! >...< if i were rich i would go there everyday to eat man. but then, i'm not, so i can't. hai..... >...< the food is damn nice, taste and presentation wise. the spoon is super long and thin and nice and the dangos are like 'SURPRISE!bet you didn't see us!' which i didn't until i scooped them up. the dango and the jelly are not sweet, tasteless actually, but it's good, cos it takes the sweetness of the ice cream and syrup and all. other wise, without the dango and the jelly, i suppose it'd be so sweet that i'd die of sweets over dose. although even with the dango and jelly, it's still sightly too sweet. but then, it's sweets! it's dessert! it's MEANT to be sweet! nyahhhh... now i want to eat..... T....T the red bean is in the green tea ice cream, so i suppose it's red bean and green tea ice cream. the green tea taste is quite thick, so people who don't like green tea would probably not like it. but i do!! the red bean is nice and sweet, but the green tea syrup is too sweet. or maybe it's just because it's mixed with other sweet stuff. the vanilla soft serve is not too soft to the point that it melts rapidly... gyahhh! it's damn good! Lot1's branch only serves desserts though..... but it's good enough. \ >w< /

SOS

2008-08-21T21:49:00.002+08:00

= that's it. =

SOS. help required for:
1. to save me
2. to help my friend

Step 1: Go to www.watsonsyouaward.com.sg
Step 2: Go to the Fit Figure Award segment
Step 3: Vote for FF05
Step 4: Fill in whatever's required [i suppose it's safe since it's under watson...]
Step 5: Spread this around.

Thanks. Alot. Really. you will have saved my online life. xD

2008-07-09T22:53:00.002+08:00

= that's it. =

this is why i love mushrooms.

2008-05-11T18:03:00.004+08:00

= that's it. =

ACJC Concert Band presents again!!!

Muse ~ a night to remember ~

When: 6 July Sunday
Time: 5.00pm
Where: Singapore Conference Hall
Tickets: $10 n $15

Pieces played:
Symphonic Metamorphosis ~ on a theme by Saint-Saens ~
Armenian Dances
Charming Asia
and lots more!

catch us before we fly to Switzerland for Competition!

Edusaveable for ACJC students.

ACJC Concert Band presents again again!!

Special ACJC Band CD!

~ A Legacy of Musical Excellence ~

Always wondered why recording is not allowed in the concert hall?
Always wanted ACJC's recordings though recording not allowed?
Always thought your recording is of low quality?

Fret not!
Here's you chance to get the recordings at the very worth it price of 2 CDs for only $20!
It's your one and only chance to purchase these CDs!
Not sold in public, but through ACJC's band members only!

Disc 1:
1. Carmina Burana Mvmt. 13 Fortuna Imperatrix Mundi ~ by Carl Orff
2. Hunchback of the Notre Dame ~ Alan Menken and Stephen Schwartz arr. Calvin Custer
3. Fantasy Variations ~ Niccolo Paganini arr. James Barnes
4. October ~ Eric Whiteacre
5. Turandot ~ Giacomo Puccini arr. Toshio Mashima
6. A Movement for Rosa ~ Mark Camphouse
7. Symphonic Overture ~ James Barnes

Disc 2:
Star Wars Trilogy ~ John Williams arr. Donald Hunsberger
1. i. The Imperial March
2. ii. Princess Leia's Theme
3. iii. The Battle in the Forest
4. iv. Yoda's Theme
v. Star Wars (Main Theme)
5. Highlights from "Chess" ~ Bjorn Ulvaeus and Benny Andersson arr. Johan de Meij
6. The Phantom of th Opera ~ Andrew Lloyd Webber arr. Johan de Meij
7. Festive Overture ~ Dmitri Shostakovich trans. Donald Hunsberger
8. Overture 1812 ~ Peter Ilych Tchaikovsky trans. Mayhew L. Lake

Remastered by Rolton Productions

2008-03-26T22:38:00.002+08:00

= that's it. =

TIRED US ARE SLOGGING (even right after concert on 24.3.8) TO BRING TO YOU:

FUN-O-RAMA XIX !!
on the 29.03.08

without YOU, it wouldn't be FUN-o-rama.it'll be acjc students only. how FUN can it be?with YOU, it's bound to be FUN!can you find the pun? i guess not.cos i can't either. right. back to business >>

you had better come or fun-o-rama. buy coupons from me. NOW! it' $10 per coupon and 1 or 2 is bound not to be enough.

Buy my coupons? pleasee? (think mocha ad)

2008-03-10T22:56:00.000+08:00

= that's it. =

BUY CONCERT TICKETS! PLEASEE?

by thursday tell me pleaseee.... >....<

Selling Tickets

2008-02-26T00:00:00.003+08:00

= that's it. =

Anglo-Chinese Junior College Concert Band Presents:

~ MUSE ~

Date: 24th March 2008, Monday
Time: 7.30pm
Venue: Esplanade Concert Hall
Ticket Prices: $21 and $25

We will be playing:
* Lord of the Rings Symphony No.1 Mvt I, IV, V ~Johan de Meij~
* Rhapsody on the theme of Paganini ~Sergei Rachmaninoff arr. Kazuhiro Morita~
* Blue Horizons ~Franco Cesarini~
* Armenian Dances Part I ~Alfred Reed~
* Elsa's Procession to the Cathedral ~Richard Wagner arr. Lucian Caillett~
* Charming Asia ~arr. Yuen Ching-Hai~
* Feng Yang Hua Gu (The Flower Drum of Feng Yang) ~arr. Yuen Ching-Hai~

Charming Asia and Feng Yang Hua Gu are combined pieces with ACS(I)

Edusave-able for ACJC students

**Please reply me asap if you are interested because good seat tickets come on a first come(pay) first serve basis.

-----------------

Anglo-Chinese Junior College Alumni Band Concert

Date: 8th March 2008
Time:
Venue: LT4
Location: Anglo-Chinese Junior College 25 Dover Close East Singapore 139745
Map: http://www.streetdirectory.com/asia_travel/travel/travel_id_330/travel_site_10667/
Ticket Price: $5

Playing:
* Glenn Miller
* Japanese Graffiti XII
* Doreamon
* Selections from Spirited Away
* Prince of Egypt
* Deep Purple Medley
* The Best of Earth, Wind and Fire

...and many many other pieces.

**Please reply me asap if you are interested because good the concert is soon!

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Anglo-Chinese Junior College Concert Band Presents:

~MUSE: A Night to Remember~

Date: 6th July 2008, Sunday
Time: 4.30pm to be confirmed
Venue: Singapore Conference Hall
Ticket Prices: to be confirmed

Will be playing:
to be confirmed

**Please keep that day free. =))

If you are interested in advertising in our concert programme, which will be given out to every concert attendee, or know of anyone who wants some space to advertise, please contact me. There are spaces or Full, Half or Quarter page. Similarly, if you would like to donate, or know of anyone who would like to donate, the spaces are also available for the specific charges. This advertising and donation(sponsorship) will help the band financially, to fly to Europe for a prestigious competition in Interlaken, Switzerland. We will be representing not only ACJC, but also Singapore at the competition.so please do help us achieve this dream. The money from the advertising and donation will NOT be misused unless you consider sending us to Europe a misuse.

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Anglo-Chinese Junior College Presents:

FUN-O-RAMA XIX
Date: 29th March 2008, Saturday
Time: 9.30am - 6.00pm
Location: Anglo-Chinese Junior College 25 Dover Close East Singapore 139745
Map: http://www.streetdirectory.com/asia_travel/travel/travel_id_330/travel_site_10667/

Coupons are going at $10 per piece.

ACJC's students work together to bring to you this occasion of fun and laughter, for you to enjoy with your family, friends and loved ones.

The bi-annual Fun-o-rama is a bi-annual event where students come together to create a fun-o-rama special to their cohort and by this, raise funds for the building of school facilities and such. This fun-o-rama will go to the building of the Centre for Performing Arts in ACJC which requires funds to build as it is not fully subsidised by the government.

If you are unable to go, but would like to support us anyway, no fret. just indicate the amount you would like to buy and the coupons will be donated to benefit charitable organisations, allowing children who are not as well-off to be able to experience the joy and excitement of Fun-O-Rama.

Hope that you will support ACJC and the students who are working hard for this to be a success.

Much appreciation to those who purchase the coupons and we hope you have an enjoyable time at the Fun-o-Rama.

Guaranteed to be "The Ultimate Trip".

**Please inform me asap if you are interested and would like to purchase tickets. There are discount coupons at the bottom of the tickets as well.

2008-01-18T19:34:00.000+08:00

= that's it. =

i borrowed this "book of musical Anecdotes" and one of the qoutes in the books goes like this:

"Music is a kind of counting performed by the mind without knowing it is counting." ~ G.W. Leibniz

read some of the front ones,were so amusing i laughed out loud at home and my sister thought i was nuts.why?cos she's a music idiot. >...<

i'm developing a sore throat from laughing. xDDD

2008-01-10T22:15:00.000+08:00

= that's it. =

i think my mum's amazing and my piano too.

my piano saved me.i thk without it,i wouldn't know how to.

my mum asked me if i wanted more food.it made me cheer up more,even though i declined it in the end.

im hoping this won't happen again.tough i feel better,it's still quite horrible.

How to die laughing.

2008-01-06T19:49:00.000+08:00

= that's it. =

How To: Die Laughing
by Maggie - August 14, 2007 - 9:16 AM
YOU WILL NEED
A Sense of Humor
Poor Health

Tip #1: Watch “Seinfeld”
It’s not a common problem, to be sure, but there was one person who almost kicked it following repeated exposure to “man hands” and “the soup nazi.” Back in 1997, a Massachusetts man started inexplicably passing out every time he watched the show. Naturally, after this happened a couple of times, the man became concerned enough to visit a doctor, which was how he ended up watching his next episode with a neurologist chaperone taking notes. Sure enough, one good joke was enough to knock the man out. But (sadly for the neurologist’s professional ambitions) there wasn’t some crazy new disorder at work. Instead, the man turned out to have cholesterol-plugged arteries, which when combined with the (relatively) heavy physical labor of laughing, cut off blood flow to his brain.

Tip #2: Go Crazy
What’s Laughing Psychosis? Picture the Joker from Batman and you’re on the right track. According to Final Exits by Michael Largo, laughing psychosis is a debilitating progressive neurological disorder triggered by an excess of amino acids in the brain. As these amino acids coagulate into a big mass they cause various synapses to start misfiring, leading victims to start laughing for no reason. As the disease progresses, they’ll often wake up in the middle of the night caught in fits of laughter. More than mere chuckles, victims begin to see things that aren’t there and experience a break with reality not unlike what happens to schizophrenics. Naturally, when you hallucinate like that, you’re much more likely to do something that leads to your death. The group most affected by the disorder: Women ages 15 to 30, who have higher levels of estrogen that may help the amino acids to start getting out of control.

isn't that nice.

2007-11-24T20:14:00.000+08:00

= that's it. =

Rhapsody on a Theme of Paganini
Sergei Rachmaninoff (laughs)
Kazuhiro Morita

Shiok.

A Band line of a 'three legged' race against time and ourselves. did we make it? probable. could we have done better? yep. =]]]

It's time for chalet on monday! >.....<

It's time for combined rehearsals with the rest of the 'ACSes'!

ENTERTAINING!!! >.......<

2007-11-17T23:20:00.000+08:00

= that's it. =

had 2 dinners today. XD

find it worth blogging about.

katong laksa at holland v, then mayim a westmall.

happy person.

however,i'm still hungry.

2007-07-23T02:24:00.001+08:00

= that's it. =

i like the contrast between black and white.
but only if there is alot of black and little white.
that's why i don't like mornings much.

2007-07-23T00:34:00.000+08:00

= that's it. =

i didn't exactly know what was being happy,what was being sad,what were the basic emotions.

and i still don't.

i don't feel like i want to be happy.neither do i think about how i don't want to be upset.

it's only when it's an extreme do i feel something and when i do,i don't know what it is.

oh well.had a more or less survivable week.time's flying.quite fast too.
turning points always wednesdays....

2007-07-12T22:15:00.000+08:00

= that's it. =

ah.fell down and sprained ankle.but tt's no why i'm here.

i'm here to announce...

that.....

THE HORNS' DRAWER AND CUPBOARD'S SCORES ARE FREAKING CLEARED! XDDDD

sooo neat...

but time taken to clear was 2 hr plus near 3,
6 or 7 stands to hold the scores,
4 bursting files and a few folders to hold the scores,
2 people around the 6 or 7 stands to clear,
with emily and gladys' occasional help,
and a few random trombone,trumpet flute scores,
and a few random trombone books............

oh the satisfaction...

im glad what i fervently think about comes true most of the time.
i got to see what i wanted to see,just as i wished i would.
quite the good day.
i got to experience what i wished to.
but quite the bad day as well.maybe it's the balance of things?

after the good things must come the bad things to balance it out?

tripped over a chair,over 2 benches,over a stone slab,over nothing,over stands and over another chair 2 times.
includes falling down too.

quite the evened out day.

2007-07-11T20:16:00.000+08:00

= that's it. =

ah.failed failed passed faled and what else?

GP fail
Math fail
Econs failed
Chinese passed

Lit?
Hist?

if i even fail one of these two,gone am i to ssp.

NNNOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!

that's it tt's the end of me.

that's the end of my resolve to get really good results for terms.

new resolve.do much better for promos.much much better.

marches were entertaining.
quite a lonely feeling without the J2s.
but it's a chance for us to improve greatly.
isn't it.

tried lotrs proper,can't hit.
but will hit.

i'm so looking forward to getting lit and hist back. T___T

2007-07-08T14:48:00.000+08:00

= that's it. =

i'm not regretting it.

was fun.

was tiring,

was blue,red and yellow,

was damaging to the wrist,

but i don't regret it.

band cip was fun. >.<

were painting 10m x 24m worth of boards for national day.

you'l see what it is. xD

got paint all over my self,even the skirt,good thing turpentine can remove w/o bleaching the skirt.

painted the yellow scales and what knots like nuts.

the markers were super squeaky.

a few of us burnt by the turpentine while washing up.

looking forward to seeing it completed.
looking forward to seeing it laid out.
looking forward to seeing it displayed.

looking forward to the results of the efforts,paint,injuries,turpentine burns.

i'm glad i went.and i'm glad to go.

2007-07-02T23:31:00.000+08:00

= that's it. =

i'm pissed and i'm hoping to be un-pissed soon.i hope i will be.

2007-06-30T17:56:00.000+08:00

= that's it. =

what's wrong with not eating cos you don't feel like it?
must you eat when people dictate you to?
when it is time?
when is it time anyway?
following others' time or your own?
why can't a person follow their own time sometimes instead of following the whole world all of the time?
it's abit ridiculous how we're expected to follow a fixed time for certain things that require no fixed time for it.
especially when we have no idea who and for what reason it is determined by.

2007-06-28T22:50:00.000+08:00

= that's it. =

i panicked slightly when i saw it.

anway,TERMS ARE OVER! OVER OVER xD and OVER >.< !!!!!!

2007-06-27T19:23:00.000+08:00

= that's it. =

one more. just one more....

NOOOoooOOOooo!!! T___T

2007-06-22T15:30:00.000+08:00

= that's it. =

this is going to be long.real long.

band camp 14-16.6
flew by so fast.3 days,but it was so fast.

it feels good to be banding continously except for the breaks.
it feels good to be banding with these people,the J2s and fellow J1s.

how many more chances would i get to band continously like that?

a few more if i count only the J1s.
no more if i want to count the J2s in.

night games was a mass of hysterical.
it was supposed to scary wasn't it?
but we laughed our way through.
i know i enjoyed it.

tune in was not much different from the previous tune ins that i attended,but the thing was this time,i was not a tune in-er.we broke the kfc lunch 'tradition'.

the sleeping late and waking early part was not that nice cos i'm a sleep in-er.amazing i managed to even wake up,or even stay up till 12 plus to mug on the 1st day.hoh.proud of myself.but it's not lasting.tried to candid the J2s for the calendat,but couldn't manage to candid evelyn and puay bing...much regretted.and candided a really really spastic photo of dominic.

monday 18.6
banded from 9 - i have no idea what time.then went lunch w yuyan at lot 1 long johns.the tpt in a soft case is so super light. >.< makes the horn in a soft case feel like a boulder.went to print the photos.and realised dominic deleted the spastic photo and jefri did't stop him.... how could you? >.< the best spastic photo ever.

tuesday 19.6
banded,then went for buffet lunch at sake sushi w the section plus shaun and kelvin minus dominic.and we ate and ate and ate and ate and ate and died and watched kelvin,puay bing and shaun eat and eat and eat and eat and continue to eat...amazing.....and estimate it's aroudn 20 plates per person.with alot of random "family" photos of rebecca,qianqi and jefri,with the phone nearly going into the kitchen via the conveyor belt,with the stuffing and stuffing and the horrible[evelyn puay bing declared] black sesame mochi,the dominic's 3 plates and the 6 pieces of watermelon per person.

went to Art Friend to get stuff for concert gift and gladys heng owes me ard $24 now?yes.you owe me ard $24.i'll remind you again don't worry.

went home and rushed concert gifts.made the horn for the section and wrote notes to the rest of the band. 1 1/2 inch per paper. >.< by the time finished w the horns,fingers were hurting slightly already.like if you hang a metal hanger on you fingers with a super huge weight on the hanger.

arranged for the J1 horns to meet at Vivo at 9.30 am to complete the gifts for the J2s.

wednesday 20.6 concert day
turns out jefri couldn't make it,sean was late and heng was waiting for sean.and i ran around vivo trying to find glue cos i forgot and went around L1, got lost, found my way and went to L2,and met rebecca,qianqi and jefri.ad found a book store which sells literally books and nothing else.

and so went around and finally,found,daiso.

and got the glue at daiso.[how could i have forgotten?!]

met w the rest at long johns[again] and was binding and pasting and filling in the boxes w gladys.ya.it was supposed to be a surpris,but i guess a surprise made in front of them wouldn't be a surprise anymore. >.<

went back to school and we were late. by a few minutes,was worried i forgot something,cos it was so little things that i had with me to bring....the files were so light,the blazer,skirt,blouse,tie and shoes all fitted into one coat hanger and one horn.quite scary for it to be so light.

dr lee was quite angry with us i think.for not following.
and the piano felt so in the way.rebecca was beside me,i was beside the piano,then when we all played loud it was like surround sound system?the sound from the front from dominic,the sound from the left from rebecca,right from myself[reflected by the piano] and back from percs. >.<

what i feel is that this concert felt quite slack.considering that the band only played two pieces,and some of us only one[scheherazade],so it was really just one final 45 minute piece for us all to enjoy each others' presence and music.the music although not perfect was coming from our hearts,for most of us if not all.the 45 minutes didn't feel like eternity.the last piece that we have to enjoy together was just gone like that.

i don't know how the audience felt about our music,but at some parts of the piece,the music just comes alive and appeals to you emotions,doesn't it?i really like pieces like these,which requires much musicality and is emotionally draining.

J2s
thank you for the short half a year of music making.i woke up in the middle of my sleep and started crying cos i just fully realised that that was really the final time we had to play with you all and it's gone.thank you for all the music,the lunches,the dinners,the concerts, and even just the presence of you all.it's so fast.all the best for all your papers,your As,Ns and whatever else.come back often to visit us,if not just to sit there and listen to us play while studying.i know we'll welcome you all with all our hearts.

fellow J1s
let's buck up together.i don't think lotr or any other future pieces are going to be any simpler than what we have been playing,but we can make it.we won't just make it,but we'll surpass it and make the J2s,the J3s onwards,the future accband-ers,the teacher in charges,the school,singapore,ourselves and especially dr lee proud of us.we'll show them that we won't let them down.we'll show switzerland and others how power accband can be.i know i don't want to let them down and i'm sure you too don't.the following year will fly past so fast and soon we'll be in their shoes and we may cry,we may miss the band,but let's allwork hard now so we will not regret it when it comes.

well,what i have left to say is enjoy whatever there is now and hope we survive terms and prelims.

2007-06-22T00:44:00.000+08:00

= that's it. =

the holidays feels wasted.

it feels so wasted.

so..

so not fufiling.

it's officially just the J1s left in the band.
and it's not a good feeling.

2007-06-19T22:20:00.001+08:00

= that's it. =

rushing concert gift.

ahhh!!! where's my scissors!!!

concert's tmr.
the last concert.the last time.let's just enjoy it.

2007-06-16T22:23:00.000+08:00

= that's it. =

back a few hrs ago,but am going to collapse and not wake up till tmr night.

2007-06-13T21:55:00.000+08:00

= that's it. =

disappearing for 3 days.

2007-06-11T10:09:00.000+08:00

= that's it. =

six words.you don't realise i hear the most random of things at the most random of times even when i don't look like i hear it, do you?

screw continuity.

screw it.

2007-06-07T22:32:00.000+08:00

= that's it. =

i can't play mvt 4 2 bars b4 rehearsal 14 till rehearsal 15.

it's freaking fustrating.

half a bar more...

just half a bar more.

i love blanks and the number three.

why?

2007-06-05T19:21:00.000+08:00

= that's it. =

pirates was good.why did i never watch pirates 1 and 2?

scheherazade is still giving me the highs.Dr lee went faster than before,so the tongue is complaining cos it can't laze anymore.

econs holiday hmwk is the most no-brainer hmwk ever ever ever.except that i keep leaving out sentences or copying the same sentence in the same paragraph.

music madness,random madness.....
i miss band prac already.
6 mths + - of it....
i'm going to miss the j2s lots.we all are.

2007-06-04T17:24:00.000+08:00

= that's it. =

T.T slide grease on my blouse.again. T.T why oh why oh why can't i be more alert...?tsk......it's unwashable and it's accumulating.....

i think that's it.
i think that's really it.
thus so,
that's it.

i find that life is quite slow when you're upset,but rushing when you're enoying.why can't it drag when you're happy and fly past whe you really cannot endure anymore?human nature?

i realised why my notes shake.cos my lower lip trembles.time to pull in the aid of 2 lollis.it's shaky..........

cousin's here frm m'sia.

toasted chocolate muffin plus cold milk is the best. X)

2007-06-03T21:56:00.000+08:00

= that's it. =

watching GO on arts central.super funny.dying of laughter.... XDDD

2007-06-03T00:45:00.000+08:00

from the case file of enjia's life

hoh.new template.going nuts.

really going nuts.

WOOH!SCHEHERAZADE!

it's the best.for now.

getting a high from playing scheherazade.

the speed.

the technicality.

the tonguing.

the music.

2007-06-01T23:34:00.000+08:00

from the case file of enjia's life

the wonders of math H1 tutorial.

2007-06-01T21:07:00.000+08:00

from the case file of enjia's life

thought.

without.

excel.

beyond.

understand.

dream.

music.

heroine.

no one.

block.

else.

threat.

overlap.

who.

it.

2007-05-31T21:57:00.000+08:00

from the case file of enjia's life

i just rmbed sth frm when i was sec 2.

i was walking to the bus stop by myself that day.and my phone strap was hanging out of my bag.

suddenly i felt someone tugging on it and whacked behind before turning around.and after turning around, i saw...

my dad.

and he was swearing cos i whacked him real hard and he scolded me for whacking him.

then when we reached the bus stop and i was waiting for the bus,he asked me what if someone had really come and pulled my phone outta my bag.

the irony of life...

2007-05-13T20:09:00.000+08:00

from the case file of enjia's life

well it's a gold wit honours! ~~~~s lots.

congratulations to all!

that's it.
that's it?
that's it.

learning to cope.will try.will cope.

think i twisted my finger(?!).and pulled some tendon or sth lidat..... T.T

will cope

2007-04-07T22:03:00.000+08:00

from the case file of enjia's life

scheherazade!!! >.<

detatchment.it hurts no matter what we say.don't think you understand till you're detatched.

2007-04-05T23:12:00.000+08:00

from the case file of enjia's life

i'm beginning to associate dover market with the section.esp yam milk tea and other bubble teas there.

2007-04-05T22:24:00.000+08:00

from the case file of enjia's life

let's all work hard.

syf-ers all the best.add oil.the next top band!

non syf-ers: let's all wrk on scheherazade and work it so well that it'll rock the sock off the audience and amaze the hell out of everyone.we will not slack and we will not lose our focus.concert's in 2 months time.it's a short time to master scheherazade for concert.we've gotta work together,push each other,make sure we're working.make sure we're not slacking because of a lack of motivation "to play better by next combine".let's have our own inaugural combines so that we can lern the parts tgt,know the others' parts and not be so dead bored and tired of playing alone or with the small section only ya?let's work on it,work it so well that when the syf-ers come back and start learning the piece,we can help them,contribute,instead of asking them for help,instead of allowing them to worry about the music.imagine if we still can't play after 1 mth plus of practising and working.we will exceed expectations and show all that we are improving.let's exceed anyone's expectations of us.

what has hyper got to do with depression, gladys?

2007-04-03T22:10:00.000+08:00

from the case file of enjia's life

worry not,for i am here to worry for you.so take heed and worry not.sleep well and rest plentifully.

audition results tomorrow may not be what you expect or not desirable to you,but please take it in your stride and do not keep staying in the disappointed mood.we'll work for the concert if we don't get in syf,right?we'll work so hard that we'll improve so much that we'll impress the rest and put the audience in awe.

go ACSian band people!

2007-04-02T18:36:00.000+08:00

from the case file of enjia's life

Muse 07 flew past really quickly like yingda said it would.now we can only look back and find places to improve upon.

tosca was good.the J2s did a really good job on the tosca opening. (go J2s!) tosca was really beautiful.really really beautiful.

i think festive was more or less there,except for some dynamic chages not displayed well enough..i was quite worried that when we came in aft the tpts,we'd screw up,like not come in correct note,not come in tgt... but it wasn;t that bad.

colonial songs beginning was not very tgt,but at least when they came in,it was not that obvious to people who don't listen out for these kinda details..and congratulations to evelyn and gladys on your successful tuning for that miserable 5 notes! it was really in tune from where i was sitting!i think the last stopped note was not bad.the two of us holding the note was relatively in tune and seemed in tune with the 1sts,but some people say we weren't in tune with them.oh well.

march didn't sound that bad either.the 1st stopped note of the horns was more or less in tune.at least sean and i were.i finally managed to reach the high Bflat that i never could.i think we more or less followed dr lee for this piece.the horns solo was quite flowy and i don't think there was random stoppig and entering for the solos.

aft intermission was tosca and as usual,P was not acccurate but it sounded alright.puay bing was sweating like nuts and can totally see that she's very tired.and again,the opening was really good,all thnks to the J2s.the resonance at the end was super loud....very tired aft that.actually already very tired after the 1st half.

feste romane.i was really scared.really really scared.for the firt time in my whole band career i was so super super scared.so scared i nearly cried.i don't know if it's we came in early or late,played too fast or too slow,but we were all lost.or at least it felt like that.i myself felt as if i really got lost and until dominic and jefri came in before the stopped horns,i felt like i was just nowhere.thank goodness for the two of them or the band is so screwed.thanks to them,the horns managed to come in,the tpts managed to come in,and we managed to try to pick ourselves up.from then on i was so scared tt i didn't dare look away from dr lee at all,it felt as if i would lose my way if i didn't follow him.

i think my fear's dragging on.when we went back on the bus gladys thought i was mad at her(for i duno what reason) when i was just sitting there.and i couldn't sleep until 1.30 this morning.

ytd when i went to sleep,i told myself:"check if the mthpc's in my bag later whe i wake up.tomorrow morning must practice."i woke up and it wasn't in my bag nor in my blazer pocker.so i calmed myself down and thought."it may be in the case."i couldn't find it in my case,then puaybing told my to check if it's with the rest,so i searched to cases and i couldnt find it.i was super scared already(a drag on from roman fest),so i just broke down and started tearing.then sean insisted i seach my bag and thank goodness he did cos it was in this obselute corner of my bag.i was so relieved that i was crying and crying and gerdine was trying to stop me from crying. >.< thanks gerdine!thanks sean!

i really really miss band practice.i really do.

i need to audition.let's pray that the roman fear will not drag on till audition.really hope so.

HUILIN!!!!! i miss you alot.please don't cry.please please don't cry.you've also made a really huge impact on me as we have on you,really really love you and please take really good care.advertise pj concert to me and i'll try my very best to make it!really please stay in touch even though we're not gonna see each other much anymore.i miss you already.

fear is a permanent thing.it's just how well you suppress it.so when you're really frightened,it will all gush out at one go.

i really wanna cry now,but i don't know for what.for why.for whom.for when.for how.an internal unvoluntary urge to cry.an unconcious thought that caused that feeling.

2007-03-27T22:22:00.000+08:00

from the case file of enjia's life

ACJC CONCERT ONLY HAS $17 TICKETS LEFT!!if you want $21 tickets,please go to sistic website to purchase.you can only do so three days prior to concert,which is friday.

i've been stoning alot these few days.was stoning the day away.haven't toned in a long long long time.befre recently that is..

tosca T2T2T2!!!! drLee's a genius! >.<

band was not so strenous today.unike ytd,where we went through the concert repertoire in our sectionals and had to play the second half down in a room which was heating up due to lack of aircon and exertion.today's practice was not that bad,but we still have lots to work on.i have alot alot to work on.i fear the uncertainties.....

fear is not a good thing sometimes.
it leads to uncertainty and insecurity.

i'm still tired.still very tired.
don't worry.i won't give up till i drop.

i'm tired.real tired.

2007-03-24T23:18:00.000+08:00

from the case file of enjia's life

syf auditions on the 13th April.will i make it? tosca shepherd's call is not well played all except one of all times,feste romane horn's melody lines am not able to play well,i can't play all the really important parts well.

my stamina is so low,so much so that i cannot sustain through the pieces,through tosca,is already dead and out of breath,through march is already trying to survive,through pantom after that is dead already by the end.

my tuning is inconsistent,always nearly there,but slightly sharp or slightly flat fluctuatingly,rarely do i manage to hold a constant note.

this morning i went t school 1hr early to go to the rooftop garden to practice so that i may develope my volume better in an open space.however,when i asked sean,jefri,huiling they all if they heard a horn while they walking into school,all didnt.was also practicing with a mute yesterday,from aft e mbti thingy to ard 6 plus,trying to play forte through for roman feste and all parts w loud parts.and the result?still a sucky soft and thin tone.

sitting on the right of sean during march is depressing.i can hear that he's loud and his tone is not that thin,so much so that when he stops playing in the middle of a horn part,you can so obviously hear that someone has stopped even if you're not looking.he's so loud that i can't even hear myself.and when he stops,the thin sound will emerge from my horn.

tosca G# B-B is also very thin,the low b's tone just does not match up to the G# and high B's tone.how can i improve?in what way can i improve.

i've been trying really hard to use my diaphragm and use loads and loads of air,so much that i become breathless really fast,but my tone's still thin and rubbishy.

been playing to much highnotes that i cannot reach well and sitting much too straight while doing so.dont know if it's true,but my back hurts when i'm trying to play march's FA CFA CFA the high range,and plus i've been practicing that the whole week,without much progress,plau yesterday's sleeping in the wrong position in the qm room,plus today's practice,it really hurts..

very hard to fall asleep too.when i'm trying to fall asleep,when it's very quiet,the music of band will just play in my head and the fingerings play in my head,my fingers unawaringly will finger it out.if it's noisy ad i listen to the music from my phone,then same things occur...i guess that it's good since it's never happened to me before previously..

colonial,horn's nicest part,from beat 4 bar 36 to bar 42 beat 2 is super nice,but once again,i'm not able to play it well.high high Bb...stopped notes originally play one semitone down,but unfortuntely we're all super sharp on the stopped notes,so we cn play a tone down and sound correct. >.<

march is tiring! ...

tosca...J's syncopated rhythm we're trying our best to play out,p's agitato's _23_23_23_23 we're also working on it,trying very very hard not to play __31_31_31_31_31_31_31 like the tuba.even if we wanna start corrct,but being influenced by others who ma or may not be aware of themselves playing the wrong rhythm,we'll still be unable to play the correct rhythm.though we feel that we're correct,but we're definitely wrong,as can be seen by the linking to the 123123 rhythm in 273.i'm worried bout I's horn and piccolo solo too.it's thin and and just not there.i dont know what the problem is,but it's just not there.the notes are there,rhythms are there,but something is missing.so missing that it feels really empty.

i was talking to hope on friday and we were both mooning about missing practices(she's choir) and there being really bored without practices ad thing is i've jut had practice the day before and she had 2 days before.i think band's so large part of my life that without band for a day,i feell really uneasy.without band for a week,i feel really out of time,dont know when is when,lost and dont know what to do.though band is hectic and most people who hear about my schedule say : "siao arh?!", it's really something i cannot do without.the last year of sec sch,i was banned from band by my parents,i felt really restless and un-me.

i really have to thank ms sng and dr lee for taking me in from my appeal in to acjc.i've been aiming to go to acjc and join the band since quite some years ago,but some how half way through,in sec 4,i lost sight of this aim and didn't have a goal to work towards.or rather i lost it though it was there.the drift away from band made me lose sight of it,resulting in poor results that did not allow me to go acjc.not that it was totally the drift away from band that caused it totally.most was my own fault for not being clear about wht i want,for not working,for not being firm in my resolutions.thank you alot to ms sng and dr lee for taking me in.thankyou ms sng for taking me in though i told you that it was because i did not study that i got such ridiculous results,thank you dr lee for taking me in though i was not up to the prefered standard,still trying to retrieve what i lost from a year's lack of practice..really thank you alot.

thank you also to my ac band mates,j1s or j2s,thank you for helping me adjust into my new class.though you may not be aware of it,but ya,you all did help.i don't really know anyone in the new class,there's three other band ppl(liling,hanliang,zhanwei) who i know and there's carol. >.< however,in a class of 23 now 26 where seemingly everyone knows everyone and i know little,it's really hard to not to blend into the background nd stay there.hanging around with the band people during breaks for the past week has made me realised that i've not been trying to blend in to the class instead of the background,made me have the courage to go and blend out of the background.

i've been blending into the background so much in my whole life from themoment i associate wit people,een with my relatives, that now i'm trying to blend out of it,it's difficult.among al my cousins,sisters and i,the relatives always prefer to talk to and associate with the rest.i've been told by some junoirs that i look scary(why arh?),maybe that's why,but maybe it's just myself telling myself that i don't want to blend out,don't want to talk to others,don't want to associate with others.till now,i'm still thinking this subconciously alot of the times.but i want to blend out.i really want to.but it's difficult.i shall still try to blend out.why can i blend into the background so well,so much that i don't feel for much,but not blend so well into the band,which i really feel so much,so much for?

sleep is not able to refresh me at all anymore except once or twice in the a week.appetite's been shrinking.hope i'm not getting sick soon.if i should get sick,let it be after auditions and let me recover fast.i'm not looking forward to faling sick anymore.maybe i will be aft experencing pe again.... let not me fall sick at this important point of time,at any important point of life.at any moment i really want to appreciate,to experience,to feel.

i'm tired.real tired.

i'm an ISFP by the way.the only ISFP in 1st intake arts ppl. =.= anyone else's an ISFP?

2007-03-10T23:44:00.000+08:00

from the case file of enjia's life

and before i forget again.

ACJC MUSE
date : 1st April 2007 Sunday (not a joke)
time : 7.30 pm
venue : Esplanade Concert Hall
price : $21 or $25

acjc students can pay by edusave.

playing :
Phantom of the Opera
March ~from symphonic metamorphosis~
Festive Overture
Feste Romane
Colonial Song
Tosca ~from the third Act~

please do come and support us.and please reply to me asap if you want the tickets.you can email me or sms me if you have my number.please come support!

2007-03-10T22:32:00.000+08:00

from the case file of enjia's life

wooh!!!

life is good to me. shall start from where it all started...

TUESDAY 6/3

woke up at 7.55 to switch on the computer to check the results of posting.says there jurong junior college.wasn't fully awake yet,so was just thinking - okae.i've been posted to jj.then went to school with eileen to appeal..was still half asleep,so just went through the process of appealing.

eileen,liyun,engloong,stuart,satish,wilson,hanliang and i went to vivo to walk walk talk talk eat eat till time for band and we met up w sheree,braynt and huiling there.we slacked and loitered ard vivo..we went to the roof top whatever its caled and 'sailed' a bowl and a boat and so on and so forth.food republic food is expensive and not that nice.tn..

ya.we went back to school for band,had ice pops,set up the stage and etc..then was combine.combine was quite tiring cos was out the whole day plus wake up so freaking early and slept late the night before... z.z desperately trying to focus..

the sad thing was when i went home,was on the bus 947,i was quite bored,so i whipped out my phone and started to listen to......(stupidly)...... TOSCA.was so tragic tt it nearly made me cry on the bus...

WEDNESDAY 7/3

had to report to jj and i didn't know how to go there,so my mum offered to send me there.actually she offered me on tues,i refused,but asked on wednesday cos was super tired.we left the house at 6.20,thinking thered be a jam,but reached jj at 6.30.so....as orienttion starts at 7,i had to sit there and stone and stone and continue stoning.don't really recall much about the morning cos 1) i wasn't fully awake, 2) i was very upset, 3) was desperately hoping tht the appeal people would call me asap, 4) slept through the talks which amount up to around half the day.

lester was also there,so i ased him to call me if he was going off for sectionals and smart person actually came up with a super good excuse for leaving jj at around 2 plus 3.excuse is...... : "i'm sorry,i have to go to acjc to appeal." so true so true.and so,with that,we 'safely' escaped from jjc.and 198-ed to acjc for sectionals.

when i reached qm rm and saw ms sng at the windows,i was like -shoots-.scarly she find out i pon jj orientation or sth like that and i die how...? and so was trying to be adiscreetap..

setionals was more of self prac since dominic wanted to see us play individually away from te section.evelyn went out and came back crying...

and so,aft one and a half day of endurance,i see evelyn cry ended up was also crying.cos it was really freaking sad.havent gotten the call,may have to go back to jj and jj had freaking orientation camp from thursday to saturday aft,meaning if i have t stay in jj,i wouldn't be able to come for combine and be late for sat combine.

and so i was crying and stopping and crying and stopping in between playing.

aft sectionals ended,we went down t e corridor beside lvl3 lift lobby to self prac summore,then gladys,evelyn and i were tuning and long toning etc..was still very upset,but calmed down le..

aft ard 1 hr 2,shaheera suddenly screamed and ran around and was wondering wht happened,then saw her face and know tt she got THE call le.we were all congratulating her as she cried.then suddenly my phone was vibrating and i tought it was an sms cos the whole day keep having sms coming in,resulting in it being very much like calls,but when i took it out,i saw some strange number and i was super excited and calmed down and picked the call up...

after i hung up it was like all the pressure inside escaped and eera and i were screaming and running around and jumping around like mad,which i think we were...

it's been a long time since i cried so much that i couldn't breathe and it's a good feeling,really good.for once in so so so long,i'm actually wide awake,so clear of what's going on and so alive.

still rmb weiting hid yingda's bag in the eupho's sectionals room and we hid his pencil case in the ac panel. XDDD yingda! open your eyes! XDD

bryant and i were playing with the projector,computer and sound systm in lt4,plying music and tosca(no more crying!) through the phone through the mic...

saw justin on the way out from school.he hadn't gotten the call yet.

was freaking tired while going home and was falling asleep on the bus. >.<

THURSDAY 8/3

reported to acjc!

hao weiyi and i duno who else was there.

at 9,all the bnd appeal ppl went to the hub to get the memorandum.and the sad thing isss...... it's not signed.

we were stoning in the canteen for v long like 1 2 hrs i wait for the memorandum t b signed...well,to be honest,i was super worried cos on weds night,i was happily preparing to tear all the jj papers up and my father refused to let me tear : "what if sth happens and ac kicks you out?" oh well.

saw mrs chang early in the morning and told her that eera and i appeal successful.she was super happy for us,but she was very "heartbroken"(qouted) tt justin was not called yet.cos she saw justin on wednesday.

and so,we got the memo,198-ed to jj,walked in ad handed it up,got it signed,and 198-ed back to ac!wooh! submitted to chris,took and subject reg form and since e mep teachers not there yet,need t get them to sign,so decided to go back later.

its so good to be back in acjc,with the og,the additions to the og and all..the random games and slackings though not supposed to. XDD

mass rally ard 4,em and i screamed our clash chords and we left ard 4.30 for band,which actually starts at 6,went to change,clean up..

emily,jefri and i went to dover market to eat,et quite some band ppl there. >.<

and back t school for combine.once again,i was very tired cos couldn't sleep early and woke up realy early and ya.basicall the same thing.was forcing myself to focus.haha,i can do TAtaka taTAka tataKA but i can't do taTAka tataKA taTAka.. T.T will work on it. -determined look-

FRIDAY 9/3

wooh! ACJC here i come again.

haha the games were the same as before,but still fun. XD
we massed danced most f the time away.

wooh fast forward to mass rally.clash chord again.really successful. XD but must conserve. xD

had og lunch-ner at swensens holland v.played some game with ice cream,figured out the bang bang game,the traveling game,the light game etc random stuff. went back to school was still early,so we got gill to teach us the 2006 orientation dance.haha.crash courses are not effective man..

campfireee. XD

the fire was really beautiful,the cinders and flame,the flaming "AC" etc.

was a peaceful campfire compared to orientation one,but it's still a fun campfire.

we had fun clash chording and cheering singing t the top of our voices,making lotsa noise,mass dancing.

claire,hao,weiyi,dora and i duno who else was there,but richie got in! =D all the best for the rest of you ya! and so,claire grabbed me and made me do the snkey thingy. xd once is enough,will never try it again. XD

was very tired and exhausted,went back with suiying,emily and benjamin.and we were random etc..

and TODAY 10/3 was a v tirin,but fufiling day.

combine at acs(i). we went t get our uniform tailored in sch.haha.i was sitting there extra while em was taking down the measurements and we found out tt some guys the measurements got less numbera than the rest and we asked the uncle if he missed out anything.uncle said sth along the line of : "they too flat,so dont need to take so many." XDD the way uncle say super funny.

haha.we prank called gladys heng nearly 50 times and we carried on to MSG gladys. XDDD haha.horns,you know what i mean! XDDD and we went to holland v nydc cos suying msged us t go there for brunch,but it wasnt open,so we thought they playuing ard w us and thus went to bk to eat.haha.turns out ther also didnt know nydc not open,so we all ended up in bk for brunch.

wet back t acj,rushed to get the stuff over to acs(i).al horns with cases and black stand too.

combine at acs(i) was quite fun.met genevieve there.she's so poor thing...one of the very few girls there in acs(ib) band... >.<

and on and on and on.

then the debriefing in the lt,the J3s came back and gave us some prep talks.crystal was telling us about her 'life story',how band affected her,thow also,but not from a diary,qinyi and ruth too and eunarco too.ms sng had her turn,the yingda,samuel ho and zhenrong had their turn.

we rushed back to acj cos was quite late le and the church ppl waned t use lt 4,so we hd t clear out of it.. and so rush rush rush,got locked out of the bcak gate.... haha.got in in the end.

went for dinner w some band ppl at bk holland v(again. XD).

its al been tiring and exhaustive days,but i love it.and my voice has changed due to the clash chords during orientation.do not be alarmed if you hear a 'stranger' calling you or when you call me. XDDD let's just hope it recovers soon..really uncomfortable...

alycia,thiam looh,claire,justin,weiyi,dora,and any one else who i may have missed in this sectence,all the best for your appeal and take loads of care!

i resolve to study hard and play hard in band too.i will NOT be like what i was in secondary school,only able to focus on one per time.i want to do this.i will do this.

thank you to gladys and anyone else who encouraged me when i was upset over the posting results and when i was waiting for the appeal results so worryingly.(yes gladys,stop letting it get into your head and grow so big its on the brink of bursting.)thank you all for everything these few days,thank you for the care and concern showered,thank you for you,thank you to the people who supported me physically,emotionally and mentally and most of all...,

THANK YOU DR LEE AND MS SNG for accepting me into acjc.

2007-02-15T21:56:00.001+08:00

from the case file of enjia's life

the end is never the end,yet,even if it does not end,it still hurts real bad.so bad it may kill.

2007-02-14T21:19:00.001+08:00

from the case file of enjia's life

why does the end hurt?

2007-01-13T20:49:00.000+08:00

from the case file of enjia's life

hohoho.tired.

2006-06-16T19:35:00.000+08:00

from the case file of enjia's life

mreow.most ppl if anyone will admit it took me long to type into a nearly abandoned blog. Xp haha.

i shall lament (not) about yesterday.

ahhhhh

haha.really last minute cause i only like decided at 12 noon ytd that i'll be going.going where.....................

acjc concert

yep.during a math class,then poor lijin was troubled by me to ask theresa got ticket or not.thankfully still have.

ahhhh.the thing dun wanna upload.sorry.a little side.

continuing along...

so i secured a ticket from theresa...one line shall be dedicated to her.

THANK YOU THERESA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!THANK YOU ALOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!REALLY!!!!!!!!!!

is that one line?should be.on w wad i was saying...

i secured a ticket,went home,wasted alot of msgs asking lijin if i could hun4 into her section.went out later than i should have.i thought i was going to be late ok.went out like 10 minutes later than i was supposed to cause i was using the forbidden computer.and so.reached raffles mrt,was trying to find the toilet that we were supposed to meet at.why toilet?i found out later.though i still dun understand why toilet.found out.dun understand. Xp couldn't find it,went back down the escalator,saw a yellow polo t and ran towards it becaue it was jolynn and i was a mad person shouting jolynn and running towards her in this crowded mrt station.yay.secured a tubist who knows which toilet.went toilet,couldn't find cindy.found her in guardiannn which closed up on us and we had to find an alternate route back to the toilet.right.fast forwarding along,lijin cheated nadiah into getting off at tiong to get chocolates so lijin would be earlier than nadiah,which she was supposed to be since she wants to zhen3 nadiah. fast forward.lijin reached,nadiah said she'd take a cab from tiong(see?lijin?how mean you were to make her have to pay for a cab ride and a chocolate which costed 4 sth)

fastforward,we conquered the approximately 500m walk to vch,waited a little while for nadiah,realised i had to get my ticket from the reception,recieved it in a red envelope,went in w cindy 1st to grab 5 seats in a row.got it in row 'O' dun ask me whyi know.it was because cindy knew.long long long story.choked 3 more seats and they happily came in.. early.not late. surprisingly. Xp cindy decided to record,me decided to record,we decided to shut up and on w e show.nostalgiaaa.1st concert in nearly 1 yr.

tune,and they started off with Carmina Burana Mvt 13 Fortuna Imperatrix Mundi yes.it's a really long title.that's what was typed on the programme.it was really really really nice. XD i liked it! but it was so short. T.T sadcase.

The Hunchback of the Notre Dame.only found out how to pronounce ytd.haha.was really different from saturday's.guess it's the difference between playing and listening. Xp very nice..... T.T touching.the saxaphone solo was damn nice.

there wasn't a national emblem as on the programme.

then they exited,in came acs(i) band.Mononoke Hime it was pretty but was really under what i expected.because the pretty horn solo turned into a 'jazzy' saxaphone solo.at least that was what it felt like.it felt too jazzy.really sad.cause i always expected that solo to sound sad and mournful,so horn would be best for it.wahh.laments laments laments. T.T why dun let horn playyyyy?!it's like making a bright toned trumpeter play some funeral song.oops.

then it was The Merry Widow it's really wierd watching a bunch of boys playing a piece about a bunch of widows.ahhh.not wierd.different.yes.different.

then it was the acs(i) recruit band.i gave up recording them one because there was nothing worth recording except that the drummer very consistent and lihai..two i didn't know the titles,three i was trying not to fall asleep.

interval.we went to groupie theresa.followed her around.saw everyone,saw em and sam and to my surprise clarice!.haha.i didn't know she was coming she didn't know i was coming.we didn't know we were coming. XD really stupid occurence.cindy was exclaiming about someone whom i'll not name in case i'm not given the rights to name.i was trying to figure out who that was.reallly.they loaded theresa w flowers,a box of chocolates,and a chocolate duckie.like the rubber duckie except in black and white and edible.fast forward.went in,couldn't find jolynn and nadiah,grabbed 3 seats 3 rows from the stage,and lijin and cindy were fighting to sit the aisle seat.cindy won.

Percussion Ensem.cindy was really on a high high for that.lijin wasn't.thankfully.and the ensem was super cool.ohmygosh kinda cool.i didn't understand it,but it was really nice.the mallets were like wow and the drums were also like wow.haha.the drums were so loud my recording had 'za2 ying1'.really sad about the za ying,but other wise it was excellent.

my vocab is limited,i'm sorry.

Trombone Quartet.i didn't expect it to be literally 4 trombones.thow was good.and i just found out emily bluffed me about thow's name.my my.i love how it so happens that i'm typing about this and windows media is playing that same thing.coincidences.but who cares?!they played The Entertainer was really great for four trombones to play sth lidat esp the fast parts cause i never knew trombonists had such fast arms.was shocked in fact.the was really good really really good. T.T

Wind Quintet was an OHMYGOSH.1 flute,1 oboe(qingyi),1 clarinettist,1 bassoonist(xiangning),1 hornist.they was really good.the timing was like perfect?watching them really feels like 'watching' a recording.cause there really was no sign of how they keep time.and the hornist was the good.everything was so clear and the really high notes were the really warm kind,not the forced kind that we play.i was really impressed.although they played sth really lengthy by mozart.which i forgot the title.so forget it.

Jazz Ensem saxaphone,trombones,trumpets,drumset and electric guitar.i have always wondered why no euphonium of horn.i still dun get it.nvm.on with what i was saying,which was nth i think.they played Fly Me To The Moon which is a nice piece if you listen to it once.more than once and it gets boring.this was really really really really nice.my recording missed the 1st note. T.T faidhi was conducting and i found out ytd what his conducting reminded me of.somehow it reminded me my aunt.the way they hold their hands is nearly the same. Xp i'm really sorry about this.i felt i had to say it because i finally found out after the long time.then they played sth which i didn't catch the title of.it was really fun.haha.very nice turn of events and turn of segments(? or is it section?)haha it starts out with this oldie and then changes to some other piece. Xp the middle section felt somewhat abit slow for it's style.haha.the drum solo was the good.it was abit too loud at one point but it was really nice.elsewhere.

A Movement for Rosa haha.xiangning's solo again.crescent time it was also her solo?yep.i think so.well there was.... i forgot what i was about to say,but nevermind.it was very nice!!!it justified the under expectation mononoke..ah.i can't rmb what i wanted to type..

Turandot. i really have nothing to say to this.it's so damn fast so damn fast my average for the 3 or 4 times we tried to play was only 4 notes.it was so damned nice too.it's so nice i can't think of anything to say about it.

ENCORE!Mission Impossible III haha.what Dr Lee said before they played that was really funny.it was so funny that i caught on immediately unlike other jokes which are funny,but takes me ten thousand years to understand.it was really funny at the end cause no one knew when to come in aft the drumsolo,so half the world came in before the drum solo was done.

ah.over with the repertoire.finally..and now omi shall go on with the groupie activities after the concert. XD haha.not that bad aft concert. lijin went back on 77,jolynn and nadiah disappeared,so left cindy and i.cindy was going to wait at vch until 11 for her father.shock.11..... nth t say.okae.nvm.we were looking for theresa to 'groupie'.haha.then we found out emily and sam were back stage(because i called to ask if i could hitch a ride home w emily Xp in the end no ride to hitch) so we ran back and groupied w emily,sam and clarice.and i found out who was the person that lijin and cindy were high-ing over.haha.finally.

and we groupied theresa,and ruth and waited thousands of year for xiangning.haha.the horns went 'tribal' with the torch.and we hung around for another half and hour,saw zhiqi,wanteng they all outside vch and went over and rubbished our way through,took the long way to the mrt station,talked alot of rubbish on the way,made a lot of noise and talked alot of 'philosophy' on the way.haha.was really exhausted when i reached home.

and now i shall lament not about saturday tune in.felt reeally bad aft combine because i cannot catch up. XD

well started out in the morning,meet lijin at bouna vista at 9.15,she said cannot be late.she ended up late and i didn't receive the msg abt having to wear school related uniform/clothes.and so i worried and nvm.walked to ac frm mrt station,lijin was pleading w theresa to come out and fetch us nearly the whole time we were walking there.

>> reached the lecture theatre(duno how to spell). signed in,was assigned to 'black' group,lijin was in 'turqoiuse'(duno how t spell either) and em and sam were in the group which was in the line in front of mine.okae and fast forward,played games within the group to ren4 shi4 each other.there was magaret frm st magaret's - hn,valarie- eupho(swiss cottage),hanliang- tuba(swiss cottage),trombonist from queensway or town sec,tubist from bukit panjang gvt highanother st magaret's whom i can't recall the name nor the instru but i can recall the face and frm ac:mingxuan,thow,wenjun and joel.

and so we played some games and thow had a forfeit which required him to go over to another group and sing the school song to jefri.

and we went to play games against the other groups.twas really funny.1st 'station''s game.dump our shoes in a plastic bag and one by one run to the plastic bag,wear your own shoe,run back,last group gets a forfeit.and so we happily dumped all our shoes in.i think mine was the easiest to find.it was the only sandals there.someone's bag of shoes got 'kidnapped' haha.that was sad.and our first person went over and happily took the shoes out one at a time.haha.so we had to tell him to pour the shoe out.and so we won 1 due to our 'cooperativeness'(ican't find another word currently) 2 due to the reason that we have less ppl. XD lijin's group had to do a forfeit.spell their group's name out w their butts.twas ridiculous because no one knew how to spell 'turquois'(i still don't)

and then we went on to a game w water balloons.1st thing all of us said : 'oh shit.' or 'dammit.' twas bu4 yue1 er2 tong2.haha.ended up no one had to get wet except the losing group.game objective.transfer 20 water balloons using 4 black plastic bags,persons holding the bag cannot move.so we happily thought up a strategy.wrap all the balloons up in one bag,get the lightest guy to hold it and the rest of the guys carry him over to the end line.wenjun ended up being the guy carryied over.and we thought we won.until...refree comes over and says that's not allowed.and so we wasted alot of time negotiating with the refree about how we would transfer theballoons back to the startline the allowed way.negotiation failed.and so we transfered the balloons back to start point and did what the rest of the groups were doing.slipping the balloons bag to bag.made easier by the soap water they squirted on the balloons.well it was difficult but we won.again,surprisingly,shockingly,to our surprise.haha.why difficult? 1 we had less time,2 we transferred more at one go than the rest,3 because one black bag was held by the trombonist and hanliang,two tall guys,the other was held by wenjun(another tall guy) and i(a short girl) and so hanliang had to bend over more while transfering the balloons. Xp sorry! haha. 'turqouis' had the forfeit again.

>> three way captain's ball was the next game,we were at a disadvantage,having lesser ppl.and not so we lost.twas sad.we were doind well 1st half.lagged 2nd half.thow fell from the bench though while catching the ball.haha.purple won the match.the queenstown girl in purple was damn poor thing.for the whole time she was playing they was calling her purple girl 1 because she was in purple 2 because her sch skirt was purple.twas funny.

and then went back to LT and grouped up with the section to go for lunch.and met MeiYing(SCGS),Vanessa(SCSS),Jefri(ACSB),Lenus(St Marg),a bukit panjang gvt high guy and another st marg's and magaret whom i'd met earlier.and off we went to clementi KFC for lunch.was really funny at the busstop.while waiting,faidhi decided we should do a self intro.and the bus was coming and someone was exclaiming that it was coming and ruth happily declared nvm one.and we happily watched the bus go past.twas damn funny.and so we had to wait another 1/2hr for the next bus.haha.and we continued self intro and rubishing around.

and so we reached clementi and we had t follow the 'red' brick road to KFC and it was theh crowded so we choked off a whole corner of KFC and meiying started to ask the yes/no story question the one where we had to guess the starting to the end of the story and could only ask yes/no questions.and so the 1st stage was passed within 5minutes by me because i rmbed the story. Xp and we(venessa and i) slogged through stage 2.haha.venessa is theh good at that kinda thing.and venessa and i were joined by jefri at stage 3.he's theh good too.and meiying was a wreck about the time cause we were about to be late,which we were in the end. XD

on the bus ride back,meiying and i posed the 4th stage to venessa.why and i?because i know the story too.and venessa was slogging over it for the whole bus ride back to ac.and so venessa,bpgh guy,jefri and i were queueing up to loan horns.and so venessa,who figured out the story already,posed the question to jefri whom i think until now still haven't found out the story.XD

and so venessa,jefri and i warmed up at a side of the hall.i found out i deproved baldy.i can't reach high A properly anymore and i could reach high high c ard 3 mths ago.twas sad.

>>went to theh ac band rm.it's really big.compared to what we have,which is tiny. Xp not that i'm not thankful for it.settled down,warm up taken by faidhi,and we had no idea what he was talking about and were struggling to transpose to the key that we were supposed to play in and suyin rescued us at one point and we died again aft that when she shifted place.jefri was really good.he was playing really well even though he didn't have any idea what faidhi was talking about too. haha.so in the end i was following his fingering and pitch. Xp guilty confessions.and then there was the commotion about the scores,we didn't have this score that score,but it worked out in the end.and hunchback was taken and it wasn't so bad and turandot was taken and it was really bad and we died on turandot. XD

>>and then Dr Lee came in and he grabbed wenlong to make a speech with him,which wenlong didn't and Dr :Lee didn't really say much and then it was on to introductions again.by school alphebetically and so we went on.i think i know the flautist shiying.she looks really familiar and her name is really really familiar.as i was saying,on went the intros,and then it came to crescent,and so happens i'm like at the sidest and so i had to go first.and then on.poor emily.haha.she haven't say anything DrLee already said sth.haha.poor thing.before em could say a word Dr Lee was like 'ah i know you' kinda thing.and on we go all the way to Z which there was none.i only realised on saturday that there was a school for every alphabet of the alphabet.

and so we went on with some warm up and i have no idea what Dr Lee was saying at all.he was going like 'pick your note' and i was like harh?and so we played. XE

the hunckback of the notre dame was good.i could catch up,i could play,i understood.we had to play this by ourselves w/o ac band one time and i think it wasn't that bad considering it was half of us's 1st time and we've never played w each other before.and the saxaphone solo for hunchback is really nice.

mission impossible III was impossibly easy.except for one or two rhythm messes.it was damn funny

gelato con coffe was not that easy but it was okae cause got someone to listen to.haha.it was nice,but abit underivative for horns.

turandot was murder.as i said earlier,the few time that i tried,it was an average of 4 notes per try.haha.sucked badly at this.adn did nearly all crescent players. XD

and so we ended off for the pieces.and DrLee did his 'speech' then.he was talking about some Pure harmonics which none of us(non ac-ians) understood and apparently,cindy didn't understand and emily was telling her she'd explain.that's a huge shock like what theh ins pure harmonics?! till now i still dun understand.i only know it's a full scale all notes played,focus on a certain few notes and it sounds really good eventhough it wa all the notes played tgt.the balance was really beautiful.

and on.we packed up in 10 minutes,returned our instruments and returned to sit w our groups.and we listened to a few 'speeches'announcements, watched a promotional video,watched a slideshow of the photos during the games.

yep i stayed for the bbq in the end. XD and we walked over to the condo and i was a clarinettist for 5 minutes. XD hahai was helping sam carry her case.her case is heavy for a clarinet case. XD and so we reached and pam went and grabbed the swing.haha.and she happily declared she wasn't wearing shorts.haha..that was really bad.

and so em,sam and i were slacking away and we dominated the swing aft pam.and Dr Lee,and 2 ac-ians were playing hopscotch.haha.DrLee is good at that.as in really good.and so.we were swinging ourselves away,letting go of the swing only enough for St Marg's and the others to swing for a while and em was nuts she wsa getting thow to push her to 180 degrees on the swing.the frame was rocking realy hard and the swing was creaking. XD and then i was swinging and em happily came and pushed me. T.T nooo.....haha.i dun like a swing i can't control and joel happily come along and pushed me and i was really traumatised cause i dun like a swing i can't control and i got violent and emily was being nice and was being a restrainer. XD and joel was mean.he was standing behind me at the swing traumatising me and other swingers.sam,em and i decided we slacked away long enough and we went off the swing as in really gave up the swing and went over to hun4 within the chefs. XD and we were thinking of ways to zhen3 joel.didn't really succeed. hai.too bad. XD

and so a rain came and interupted the bbq and we all transfered ourselves and stuff to shelter and we hung around for quite sometime.haha.i secured a ride back home from em and her brother who said since shun4 lu4 so can. XD em,sam and i we went ard looking for the club house to find the vending machine and i got cheated by emily.she walked and i happily followed her.into a dead end.i didn't realise she was trying to bluff me. T.T and so we found out that the club house was this door that we walked past nearly 3 times and i got lost trying to find the door to get out to find grace who was also looking for the vending machine. ah.the door wasn't far.there was just too many doors. XD and so we grabbed a drink each and went back to the 'porch' and we watched ppl go off.and emily,sam and ruth was exclaiming about how slow i was aft em told me the wasabi joke which took me 10 minutes to digest and figure out and laugh at.

and so aft a while of slacking off at the 'porch',either emily or her brother decided it was time to go and so emily,her brother,joel and i loaded ourselves into a taxi.i have found out i cannot do directions during that taxi ride home.and i was listening to conversatios that i didn't understand at all.and joel happily said i looked like the typical studious njc student who declares:"i have to go home and study."i was like =.-? and em has been teasing me about looking like a njc student ever since.stop it ok. XD i don't do the njc studious thing.i can't do that in fact.

and so how i found out i can't do directions.at the exit to bukitbatok east along the highway.uncle asks:"na3yi4bian1"as in into the exit or the next next exit.me happily replies :"zhou3 zhi2" go straight.twas really stupid because no matter how the vehicle moves,it still has to go straight.it's only a matter of left straight or right straight.and then,at the t junction in front of the driving range near my place uncle ask turn which side me happily say turn right.em was asking:"turn right?" and i was declaring :"uh.turn right."until i saw my finger which was pointing left.like ohmygosh.that was really stupid.and so i declare i can't do directions.yay.not. X3

and so i reached home dead tired for saturday and yesterday.and now,finally finish typing and i'm dead tired too.cause i spent nearly 5 hrs typing about one day and one night.congratulate me.i have typed so long after a duno how long abandonment of the blog.look forward to this being abandoned until 8thjuly.haha.ja.

2006-03-25T17:18:00.000+08:00

from the case file of enjia's life

anewaeee....shock ain't u?2 post in one day.haha.nah.i found this lyrics on the net and found it quite nice and not sickening.at least to me taste.didn't find out how it sounds like.haha.scarly later hear le not nice can just go n die la.

here it goes...

Tears of Heaven

walking alone in the night
along a snow covered path
flakes land on lashes
like shards of memory falling

shooting star falls
across the night sky
tail of stardust
like the flakes of snow

melted snow flakes
on my tongue
mystifyingly salty
like the taste of the sea

tears of heaven
sea of winter diamond
tears of heaven
raining unto the land

why the flakes are salty
why the stars fall down
must be the tears of heaven
just like the tears of my eyes.

that's it. mew.

2006-03-25T17:00:00.000+08:00

from the case file of enjia's life

yayayayayayayayayaya. not yay repeated.

gonna edit template.finally!!!!!!!

depending on whether i feel like it or not.flag day, go die.

die till really die.

thankgoodness it's the last time i'll be doing this *loody thing.

yep.CRESCENT FUNFAIR!

8th april
crescent girls school,
coupons at $10 per set.
aim is to raise funds to facilitat the arts conservatory.(it's point blank now.no acoustics whatsoever,stuffy like nuts and quite useless.)

yep thank you!

hope i still rmb how to toggle w html.

2006-03-04T23:25:00.000+08:00

from the case file of enjia's life

not exactly the most interesting time of year.decided to blog when my computerlaggs.yeah.sorry for being on haikus for aso long.probably will have another longl long haiku aft this.yea well,ytd birthday,no cause for celebration.duno why ppl love to sing happy birthday so much.i hate that song actually.really.sou da yo......common test just over,happily announces that i have:
bio 30/50
chinese 79.5/130
(sc)phy 29/40
math d 16/20

awaiting chem,ss,hist,geog,a math,el. yep.math confirm fail.can't do math.just hope humans can scorehope combine sc can score too.everything except math must score.math can score good lo.haha.whatever.

well.........sayonara.

2005-09-26T21:35:00.000+08:00

from the case file of enjia's life

it's been a long while.been lazy and tired.can't seem to keep awake for long these days.

well,cut mt sole one saturday,then cannot walk properly.and aft that,on sunday still have to go jurong east for music class.struggled all the way there and home,only to get an ankle which was hurting like who knows what and the cut also very pain.hurts lo.today wake up,go to school.stupidly went and play ball.aft play,aft recess,pain like xiao.aft el remedial,cause very pain,so went and pout ankle guard.by the time reach home really tong4 de2 bu4 ke2 yi3 ren3 shou4 le.can die. T.T till now still pain,though i didn't wal much,except for just know when i played my piano and used the sustain pedal.BAKAAAAA!!!! T.T duno tmr how to run mass run.hopefully tmr morning okae again.the worse run le pain pain,go home die again.haha. T.T depressing.

CME exam tmr.doubt i'll pass,seeing that i never ting1 ke4 cause too noisy. T.T well,what can i do?

AHHHHH!!!! just realise i haven't and duno what to study for music theory!!!! cannot fail!!! must pass high score,otherwise music whole thimng dail le.practical play like 1st time playing piano lidat. T.T

BERTHA!NICOLE!FAYANNE!WHERE ARE YOU?! WHAT PERIOD TO STUDY?!?!!!?!?!?! T.T

2005-09-05T20:43:00.000+08:00

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i hate blogger sometimes.i typed in like 3hrs worth of rubbish and here it has erased it for me.asses.

2005-08-27T00:34:00.000+08:00

from the case file of enjia's life

She bounded up the steep steps up to the caves,eager to get to the biggest cave of all.once inside,she wsa immediaely stunned by the vastness of the cave and it's massive,grim-looking walls o stone.they made her feel insignificant,and.. for some unaccountable reason,a little uneasy.

The net moment though,she saw something more reassuring.in the far right corner of the cave a large white cloth screen was being erected,musicians were gathering and people were taking their places for some sort of a show.

an old man in a tattered and grimy green cloak with a long straggling beard made his appearance by the side of screen.his expressioned startled.it had an intensity she had never seen before and it made him seem like some sort of mysterious magician.her uneasyness returned as she watched him gazed around the audience.

he clicked his fingers and immediately a small boy with large sad eyes wearing a startling costume,all green and red,appeared.even stranger... was his face.his cheeks had been painted with scarlet make up,making him look like some perculia doll.from his hands dangled two wooden puppets,armed with swords,and dressed as he was,in brightly colored clothes,with their wooden cheeks picked out in scarlet paint.the doll-like appearance of the boy and his wierd similarity to the puppets...sent a shiver through her.

the figures jerked into action in the boy's hands as a lively dance tune struck out.they leapt and spun in the air,their swords flashing,and all in time witht eh music,until she thought it was real.the boy himself seem to become one with them.his body mimicked the movements of the puppets,while his eyes glowed...with eager fire.the music stopped.the dolls fell limp.the boy disappeared behind the screen at a nod from his master.

a melody struck out again,this time,solemn..slowly,the white cloth of the screen seemed to come alive.behind it the black shape of a temple appeared,followed by black shadowy figures moving in a stately procession.they were cuncanningly life-like,with their nodding heads and the slow deliberate movemnt of their legs.the spell of their realism took her in hold.she was entranced,yet helf-afraid.the dark shadows on the screen were taking on a reality all of it's own.a solemn note on the gong marked the end of the procession.the figures,outlined on the slowly darkening screen moved slowly inside the balck shape of the temple.then.....silence.

the stillness of the cave roke with the once again lit up screen.this time,the solitary figures moved slowly around each other.yet the sharp outlines of the swords indicated the beginning of a much grimmer contest.their paces quickened as they became locked in close combat.she held her breath,already believing in the deadly intent of their thrusting weapons.suddenly,a sword rose and swiftly fell,following a piercing scream,all too life-like in its agony.she jumped in terror.one of the swordsmen had fallen to the ground.a slow red stain spread against the white of the screen.

the old man appeared by the side of the screen,holding up two puppets,the fighters in the grim contest.one of the puppets raised its sword in a grisly gesture of triumph.she looked closer.the other puppet bore a close resemblence to the old man's assistant,the boy with the large,sad eyes and awful scarlet tinted face.

she panicked wildly,screaming as she ran out of the caves,stumbling blundering,desperate to get away from the ghastly presence of the cave....

she sat in silence on the way home....

once home,she made for the comfortable familiarity of her tiny room.her wooden doll still sat cosily in the corner,with it's fixed smile and large round eyes.but there was now somehing faintly mocking about that smile.she screamed.

okae...this is a story i got from english tys paperII june 2002.yeah.it's been aedited.thyought not much.yea.heh.reminds me of the movie'the candyman'.yeah.typed it out cause i like it!!! Xppeacemaker cheated me.haha.okita shouji.thought it was a girl.turned out to be a guy.who's like a girl.hurmph.ahahaha.well,who ask me to thinkwithout thinking?

2005-07-27T20:09:00.000+08:00

from the case file of enjia's life

i cannot stand it when people come near me with a metal object.any metalmobject at all.especially if it's something thin. or long.i simply cannot stand it. not even a metal rod.

well,got detention on friday.4demerits.i think all from mr phua one.shrugs.what can i do since he loves demerits so much that our class is the class with the most people going for detention?well,nearly got a speech-lecture from ms low.- sighs with relief -

well,i'm still trying to get over it[nth to do with the above matters].and apparently i'm not doing well at all.duno why.just can't get over it as quickly as i used to.and i had direct confirmation from this person about what i'm wondering about[whether it's really real or just a passe].it's not exactly good on the mental state of a person when this kinda thing happens.that's partially why i'm screwed up now.

mugging to finish my e math,ss and hist hmwk later.gr8.forgot to ask huisi hist got what questn. T.T well, at least i know for e math and ss. X( unfortunately,it won't help much.since i'll still have to go for detention.common test from 11 august to 16 august.

PERFORMANCE by CGSSB
date : 20 AUGUST
venue: FOUNTAIN OF YOUTH, SENTOSA

harhh.interesting neh? : i'm back to stoning anyway.this morning stoned all the way from jurong east to redhill.part stone part talk on the way home.yeah.turning back into a stone to numb myself.

2005-07-25T20:25:00.000+08:00

from the case file of enjia's life

i realised 'st'h.yes i did.uh.yea.y'o'u don't know what i realised though 'p' resumably you might be realising it sub-'co'nsiously.we realise the same thing,but you 'mi'ght 'n'ot know that i'm realisin'g' 't'he same thing as y'o' u.'m'y r'e' alisa't'i'o' n 'satisfy 's m'y' f'our' i'd'eas it 'r'eally s'eams' .'it' 'really' 'breaks' 'my' hig'h' 'e'fficient st'a'nda'r'd of low 't' ension.

wells,that's one thing.thing #2.wells,emily,jiayou okae?you can do it.and dun overstress your shoulder wor. grins- think about the nco camp and ganbateh.haha.being out of point.

thing #3.i realise this.[it's different from the 1st realisation.]whenever ppl get depressed or upset or sth lidat and they come to find me,i find myself being in the same state of emotion as them.well,it might be because i'm easily swayable or could be because i'm a wierdo.but well,relly dun want this to happen atall.it's dapressing. well,that's about it.

and,i really had fun on speech day!haha section roaming and eating.haha.all share here share there,fun neh.hmmmm.and aft speech day thingy go out with grand ahma[ruth],aunt[em] and sister[liling],also very fun.Xp haha.was a ac-ian for ard 5 min ahaha.thanks to grand ahma.Xp

that's ard it.ouh.and the band shirt is settled,priscilla is slogging over the band collar pin next.yep.ahhh.found a very super old badge with the letter'cbb'on it.turns out to be a badge for the crescent brass band to stick on the sleeve that thing.and that was like how long ago?haha.well.depression is settling in.shall go and depress myself further.

2005-07-22T21:56:00.000+08:00

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2005-07-18T22:07:00.000+08:00

from the case file of enjia's life

whO SAyS dAT i dIDn't SAy To uSE a sOCk TO meND iT fOR aFTERWARDS? REAllY wISH aLL OF THE PEOPLE HAD LIsTENED well. THE CAPS is ON FOR A PURPOSE.FIGURE It OUT iF YOU HAVE THE GUTS TO.DARE?lOOK HERE.THIS IS ALl lIABLE RUBBiSH MADE TO kILL TIMe.you SHOULD NOT aTTEMPT lIKE NOW,To tRY AND mESS UP YoUr MIND BY SIMPLY BeING thE KINDa nUTbALL,LIKe EVERY fELLoW WHO IS TrYING TO UNDeRSTAND THIS,ARE BEING.

yes simply ignore that crap paragraph unless you have a clue as to what i'm talking about,chances of which is ----zilch.

2005-07-17T22:15:00.000+08:00

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IT'S EATING INTO Me.whenever i see it.i'm half eaten alreadY,yet nothing is redeeming me.nothing.i'm Having an kinda feEling.i have no idea whAt this RevaluTion Is.aLl I can do is hope that it wears out.and soon.a tasK seEminglY unachievable.tOUgh looking.that's it.i'm near the point of break down.but i shall stall the reaching of break down for as long as i can,so that i might heal myself.

2005-07-17T20:40:00.000+08:00

from the case file of enjia's life

information. my next post will come in a millions years time.so if you bother,check back.if not,scram.okae.i'm being crappish.but it's called depression.yea.not.well,it's something.something i'd rather not talk about unless asked directly.which will never happen seeing that the one and only person other than me,who's involved,doesn't know that it's affecting me at all.no.that person doesn't know this problem even exists and i'm no about to spil it ou until i'm asked directly by this person or soe other person reads my mind and decides to talk.and oth situations are never ging to happen.it's never going to happen because i will it so.

2005-07-09T16:40:00.000+08:00

from the case file of enjia's life

nth to say erxcept that i'm waiting for something and i duno what at all.

anyone with any idea of what i might possibaly be waiting for,

msg me.

i want to know.

i don't want to be confused anymore.

i'm determined to figure this out once and for all.

yet,

i know that it's not going to be as easy to figure out as it seems.

2005-07-03T20:56:00.000+08:00

from the case file of enjia's life

it's depressing how people have what they want and still want more of the same thing.for example,you want this certain thing[a] and certain thing[b] and you finally get thing a and you're still not satisfied and want b,which is around the same thing as A.has anyone ever thought about how b might be feeling?b might be waiting for quite some time already and when the person gets a,the person wants sth else almost the same as a and b [c].

it's very sad how some people can be like that.

sigh.it's been quite a while since i decided to blog.I cannot withstand this situation.as in seriously blog.not just slap in a few words.i'm learning some stuff from some expert and i'm proud to admit that i'm catching up.sometimes,it's just so sad.It's always about her.like thing's just happen and you duno why or for what and it's really depressing not to know.Always looking like it is.it's hard to decide or figure out what really is going on.Always saying you want.ladedum.this is the thinking me.ahah.read a manga[Mars] and there's this qoute that says 'it's better to be unrefined than a be master at making fun of people.'[sth lidat]wahah.it's super lihai words la.=) haha.crap but.yea.When it's already a have.it's damn cute la.some of the expressions in the manga.haha.yes it's a manga.And ending up someone else upset.haha.abit hung up on manga now adays.And still out of it.manga is damn nice.haha.simple and comprehensible.Think.It's not this simple.haha.but very confusing when miss one or two books.Xp man.i love manga.haha.all thanks to kaili.Xp It's only when you've experienced it that you understand.

okiex.i'mbeing very psychological now.ehhh.is psychological the word?Xp english abit the luan now.Xp lemme think.psychiatrical? XXXXX psycho? XXXX physiological? XXXXXXXXX uhhhh.ahhh.dun wanna think liao.haha.shall go back to simple graphics and english.MANGA!haha.crap.But i guess you won't understand.

2005-07-01T20:13:00.000+08:00

from the case file of enjia's life

ladedum.dun wanna blog abt the past anymore.haha.as ms neo says:'forget abt the past and concentrate abt the present.' haha.that's the only thing i really rmb frm her history lesson.haha.i can dun be history rep liao.[sigh of relief]haha.sry ain! Xp

ahhh.but i simply must talk about tuesday's sectionals and thursday's band. yea.change horn on tuesday.spent ard nearly2hrs servicing my horn[previously shuangying's].2nd key string break.slides un greased.and gigantic horn.haha.so i wentand grease it.and aft grease,turn it back up,try to play,trigger stuck!hurmph.cannot play with trigger fingerings,so have to play with alt fingering.call it alt cause i dun usually use that. but yea. T.T so ytd,i played all the pieces with trigger-less horn.haha.not bad for not being used to it wor.haha.but played some really wierd notes cause use wrong fingering. Xp let's recall.

C 0 0
C#/Cb 12 T23
D 1 T3
D#/Eb 2 T1
E 0 0
F 1 1
F#/Gb 2 2
G 0 0
G#/Ab 23 T23
A 12 T12
A#/Bb 1 T1
B 2 T2
C 0 T
and so on so forth.yeah!haha.mnust rmb not to play D as T12.and E as T2.and A as T3.

let's see.today's youth day might as well not be youth day. cause it's damned crappy and as per normal sch days erxcept for the hm clothes issue.yea.

ouh.ah.cut my hair a far east plaza.haha.suiying also.haha.went to the salon,saw the announcement:'$15 for students' and i read :'junior hairstylist' nearl cried[jkjk].haha.traumarized worr.the last time i was under the hands of a trainee,for layerin hair,took nearly3 hrs. T.T waste time neh.not bad this time.except she was determined to cut off my fringe.haha.stoped the hairstylist.whee.haha.suiying looks different now.yea.

i duno,but i think this person has wuite a few wierd words that make really great sense.sry for posting your link here,but yea. www.illegaltender.blogspot.com haha.it's damn chim.but really makes sense.once again,if you happen to be the owner of this site and you come across this,don't hantam me!!!

heh.Xp okiex.i am determined to work hard.uhhh.....ehh.yea......heh...hmmms.so now i'm supposed to have english tuition with mrs noi[my sister's ex tuition teacher and my cousin who's studying to be a lawyer's ex tuition teacher and my previous p6 tuition teacher],math with ms teo[duno who the heck that is],chinese with probably mdm he[my sister's tuition teacher of 3mths who got her an A2]....etcetc. T.T wahhhh....

haha.let's see.tmr got 4 tngs going on. 1)math tuition[opp my aunt's bk shop 2)english[near my aunt'sbk shop also] 3)sjab carnival[not going.haha] 4)mr josef's wedding[not going either] haha.anyway,happy wedding mr josef and uhhh...fiancee. Xp nv give me invatation?! haha.jkjk.okae.this one is crap.

okae.ss is more interesting liao.history also.as usual,mrs gek goes :'enjia,dun sleep'even when i'm not sleeping ;_;

wheeeeee.my mom telling story about aft she gave birth to me and got depression. T.T heh.sniff.my mom's saying storyyy......very interesting...... Xp

ladedum.my horn is stuckk...

haha.

great.i'm nuts.

haha.

damn.haha....

haha.

crap.

haha.

2005-06-27T21:38:00.000+08:00

from the case file of enjia's life

ladedum.tmr is council investiture.
and we're dismissed frm class at 10.40am.
and we've got to assemble in band room by11.15am.
and i've got to take fanfare and sch song.
and we've got to move up to the hall at 11.40 by 12.00.
and we've got to play for the councillors.
and we've got to sit there and wait.
until the thing starts.
and we've got to play fanfare as the GoH comes in[damn!i duno her pace and i duno the distance.]
and we've got to play the sch song.
and we sit there until it ends.
sigh.

i'm still not hearing frm the kinki ppl. T.T

and 'john williams in concert' is so damned fun. Xp but there's a high g and i was already half dead and there's the imperial march thingy which i always wanted to play and the ET thingy,which i also always wanted to play and the star wars one[which was only the woodwind segment] and the duno what thing that's supposed to be in 2s and JAWS!!!!! haha.the tubas came in and they were the only ones playing that part[tuba solo.the one that goes de-dem.........de-de-dem..........de-de-de-de-de-de and so one so forth] the one where the shark comes and the music just plays.haha.damned fun. Xp haha.ouh.horns got alot of melody wor. haha.i love john williams!!!!! haha.cause he loves brasses. Xp haha.that's crap, but ya. Xp

ouhhhhh. suiying got a picolo solo for that piece! gambateh!

okae.i'm seriously starting to crap.haha.yay!!!!!! i love 'abba gold','postcard from singapore' and 'john williams in concert'!!!!!!!!!!!!!. Xp

you can't blame me!

but the thing is not enough impact when we play. T.T sounds flat and dead. T.T and those kinda parts that are supposed to hit you and shock you like xiao nothing one..... T.T

sniff.

i'm going to stay calm tmr and not panic and think so much.

it's okaeee!!!!

wAAHHHH!!!...T.T

Xp

i'm not trying to cheat myself.

i'm trying to crap. T.T

sorrriiiieeeeeee!!!!!

2005-06-26T22:19:00.000+08:00

from the case file of enjia's life

band camp was frm 21-23june.don't want to talk abt it.deserately ill on 1st day,absent on second day,confused the third day.

well,ya.

dun want to say much.

just don't feel like saying much.

because some how,

i'm feeling really abnormal.as in upset over nth.

maybe it's sth.

but it's not sth i'd tell anyone at all.

not even the person related to it.

yep.

that's it.

end of post.

ahhh.comment on 'sunday, june 12, 2005' the part abt the not so tall thingy, okae???!!!!haha.must wor.

2005-06-20T23:03:00.000+08:00

from the case file of enjia's life

okae.it's crap.it's already like 11 and i'm still reading 'mars' online. okae. it's supposed to be a manga,but can't find it, therefore,i resort to the internet. haha.happened with ab and fb also. read the summary of alot of mangas,but have yet to nail one down to read frm the book.the whole series meaning. haha.

sad.still on tank12.

2005-06-19T22:56:00.000+08:00

from the case file of enjia's life

heyx.if anyone knows of where sells batons?could you please tag y board or email me @ socrates_curse@hotmail.com ?thankiew.=)

so far,i noe bandworld got sell,yamaha(plazasing) got sell.so anywhere else? thanks. anw.

ps:
refer to post on sunday,20june2005 paragraph 2,3 and 4 and comment.=x

d

2005-06-19T20:35:00.000+08:00

from the case file of enjia's life

- shakes head -

I CANNOT WORK WITH A TIME TABLEEE!!!!!!!!!!

- shakes head -

SCREAMSSSSSS

- shakes head -

sigh...........

- SHAKES HEAD AND SCREAMS -

okae. that was uincalled for, but ya.

AAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

well,they say a person who wants to scream is either a person with an elated soul,a soul which is very happy,a person with an excited soul,a person with a cheered spirit.well,they forgot a person with a tortured soul or a person with a imprisoned soul or a person with a confused soul.

sniff.
nose
itching
sniff
sniff

hah. that was crap.

dum dum de de dum

seriously crap.

i don't know how i'm dedicated.
i don't know how i'm outstanding.
i don't know how i'm strict.
or even firm.

all i know is that i don't know how you see such things in me.
when i've never seen them before in any part of my life.

ladedum. well, i'm accoustomed to crrpping since i slept like 12 hrs due to a flu pill combined with 2 panadol. T.T

2005-06-17T21:00:00.000+08:00

from the case file of enjia's life

wells, went acjc concert ytd. as usual, was a interesting concert.

abstract artist turned conductor.

sister[of abstract artist turned conductor] laughs like nuts because of that[initially].

sister[of abstract artist turned conductor] says something about water pressure and legato.

confuses friend.

and on and on the concert goes.

interval.

sister[of abstract artist turned conductor] and friend goes down from circle seat area.

goes to area near backstage in front of stage.

waits for ahma and ah gong.

hugs.

follows ahma around to find ah gong[who disappears after one sighting].

time up.

goes back up.

plonks down into seat and the concert continues with the alumni.

percussion ensem..

percussionssss!!!!!!!!! why not even one of yew all there???!!!!! T.T
okae. shall type normally now. Xp haha. percussion ensem was so damn cute kae. like they were playing all these super cute themes and pieces laaa... eg.the pinky and the brain,elmo's world,barney's i love you you love me,some nursery rhyme thingy. was damn cute. haha. laugh until cry. Xp sryyy. why no percussion there???? haha. percussions. "musical evening 2005" must have percussion ensem and you all make it a good ensem kae?! =)

percussion ensem over.

pieces by acjc band.

[i see ahmaaaa....]

concert finishes.

stage lights turn white.

goes off.

stands at lowest level of victoria concert hall.

tries to take a shot of sister[of abstract artist turned conductor] with her new haircut with friend#2's camera.

not much success.

hitches a ride home with sister.

wells, that's about it.

anw, read paragraph 2,3 and 4 of 'sunday, june 12, 2005' and comment in tag board okae? haha. thankyiew.

shoots. just sneezed and now lungs hurt.

2005-06-14T18:28:00.000+08:00

from the case file of enjia's life

depressing. duno why.just depressing.and i've yet to screw you screwballs.

2005-06-12T22:57:00.000+08:00

from the case file of enjia's life

sniff... criesssss..... Xp haiiii. they haven't sent me anything? i'm seriously beginning to wonder if asahina is as gong as he looks. if yes, i can go strangle emily liao. T.T haha. but probably it's because they no time? sniff. stillll...... T.T

hmmm. i made an impt observation today. uhmmm. it's actually based on what i rmb. horn players are usually petite or small sized. xp see atsumi? see me? see shuang ying? see miyuki? see yukko? see buriko?

uhmmmm. except for some, like nana, yuting, michelle, the kinki high part leader, the guys in kinki u, and some others.

but mostly horn players are small sized right?!!!!!!!!! agree with me?! if yes, tag on my tag boarddd! i want to know how many ppl agree wiyth me. haha. not that i'm going to go, ' see? i'm right!'it's just so i can happily believe in my observation skills. xp haha. that was crap. but ya. haha.

it's been such a sad case day. once again, lijin assumes without blinking, that i have a bf. girl, please check your brain before you assume?! and well, i haven't got a decent mail in like what? 2 yrs?! it's saddening. xp haiii.

ouh. just woke up this morning and this sentence just popped into my mind. 'must get mrs chua's baton.' eheh. haha. abit guai4 right? haha. too bad. i'm a guai4 person, sure have guai4 thinking one.

haha. and ouh. my sister passed her driving test. she told me ytd and guess what i dreamt ytd nigh? i dreamt the whole band went for driving test. tgt. like a sch excursion. how lame can i get?!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-06-08T23:32:00.000+08:00

from the case file of enjia's life

omggg!!!!!!!!!!! i'm so missing kinki!!!!!!!!!! arhhhh!!!!!!! T.T sniff

1st june

dann early. but i was a little late cause blardy PIe actually closed[since when did it ever close?] and had to make gigantic detour which my parents didn't noe how to use. anw, check in liao, had breakfast with em and her family and sam. so paiseh. em's mom paid for me and sam's breakfast. thank yew!!! ya. and well, em managed to hug her brother. dun what's the deal, but ya. went into the deperture placey and were allowed to walk ard for a while. went to bookshop with em and liling, then time to go liao em and i were like panicking cause we couldn't find liling. haha. found her at the gate. yep. went in, didn't sleep on the 7 hr flight. played ca4rds with sheryan and geko. when playing uno with sheryan nearly laugh until die cause i sabo her in the end sabo myself get draw 16. Xp reach the transit airport, took candids of ms low, mrs chua, ms ang, ms azilah. din candid ms chye though. reach japan, quite dark liao. half died on the way to the hostel. nice hostel though. got bunk bed and so damn nice lar. haha. slept.

2nd june

woke up damn early to iron uniform. 1st rm to wake up. even before the teachers. half asleep still. went world expo in sch uniform and windbreaker. half died here. damn cold la. and was raining. and the wind was blowing and i was literally crying for leg warmers. haha. as very very cold!!!!!!! cold until ankle super pain[frm old injury] and left shin also pain[old injury agn] the singapore pavillion was rminding us of the singapore food we missed. haha. em and i were drenched cause we didn't have an umbrella. yep. and janice and hweegeok and liling went into this horror thingy and cause they amplified the screams of the ppl inside to the outside, me, sheryan and em were so damn shock and we were going 'this mkust be them screaming' haha. nearly died shocking. caught this guy staring at us while we were eating lunch[not exactly]. yep. turns out to be the person that the rest were talking abt[having shocking blue eyes]. yep. was cold and wet. haha. my bag was drenched to the not so core. haha. coldddddddd. Xp no flu though. haha. good. emily got her tea leaves at this kiosk which we had dinner at.

took candids

3rd june

went music museum, ethnology museum, osaka castle and osaka shrine. yep. music museum got this ancient horn which they made me play. haha. yep. got all the ancient ancient music stuff whuich are like so damn nice. but too bad they didn't open up the pianos for us to play. ethnoilogy museum. got quite some bit of souveniers. yep. wanted a dreamcatcher, but thought it too ex. ya. hmm. walked with janice, wenjun and em. haha. fun neh.

took candids.

4th june

kinki! went kinki uni by train. was so scared later lose someone on the way there. and was so damn awkward at first cause we couldn't communicate well. paiseh nehhh. i tripped on the way up this flight of stairs and everybody was like so damn shocked, including me.[still got the blue black on my leg] fell cause cannot see steps with the horn infront of me. haha. then miyuki kept asking me if i was ok or no la. haha.

set up, play abit, went to join the rest of the section. the names all suddenly pop out, also luan diao liao. not sure who is who. hah. kept kena candid. haha. but i lihai, manage to dodge, but still, their candid-or quite expert neh. managed to get one. yep. they very farnie la. i think all of the kinki-ans have the same language hand book la. they all asked 'do you have a boyfriend' . so damn crap. ya. so i said dun have and miyuki started offering me all the horn guys, ask me choose one. like ehh?! haha. they suan-ed atsumi and buriko by standing them beside me la. haha. then compare the height. haha. i taller. but nana was so damn tall okaeeeee. haha. they kept going on and on abt how cute i was and admittedly, was quite pissed off. ahh. then we had warm ups. long tones cannot die neh. aft each note got time to breathe one. haha. ahh. then we played jap graff some of the major pts and we are the world some major points. heh. was quite happy that time cause i managed to learn frm the experts and they managed to learn frm me how a short short stacatto sounds like. lihai ppl can adapt damn well seh. hah. me learned how to pay louder.

had lunch and met another hornist. chinese neh. yep. -shakes head- they were saying that i could fit in with the japs cause i can pronounce the jap word[they taught me how to pronouce the jap graf words and what it meant] perfectly and i could eat the very sour plum[uhhhh... what's that got to do with anything?]. haha. got a bite of yukko's peanut butter sandwich. very very nice! haha.

had rehersal. played joyous spring, fiefoerniek. then kinki high played, then played concerto with kinki high. then was the 3 combines. japanese graffiti 1st. student conductor[asahina yasuhiro] conduct. at dixie, one moment i look up got baton, next moment, no baton and asahina was laughing?[how did he put the baton down so damn quickly?!] found out later was because the baton flew and hit the flautist. nice. must learn frm this. throw and hit suiying. Xp sry! jkjk!] play singapore experience. their loud is so super loud. and their 1st horn got the same tone as mine! so damn shocked.

then had to leave liao. pack up, didn't fall on the way up stairs.

went back hostel without instrus. by train also. was also very scared later lose someone. went iron uniform aft dinner. yep. lost janice's uniform to peiting's toom. ya. peiting help me iron two of the uniforms and ehhh. she accidentally took one back and that nearly killed emily cause we thought that uniform was her's.

5th june

kinki's day2. wenyt in uniform. heh. rehersal. played the last stage again. baton didn't fly. the singapore experi4nce, then we are the world. then encore piece, stars and stripes.

break aft our rehersal the kinki pplwere doing their rehersal of display. i wanted to watch so much la. but i had to tie our ppl's hair and i couldn't pang seh peiting to tie them all by herself, seeing that i tie two liao she still at one. xp yep. then took photos with the kinki high ppl. and one of them gave me like so many neoprints? aha. arigato. =x then we had to go to the hall to reherse something. me and em and 4 kinki high ppl only. was wondering what the heck that was until we reached there. but was rushing to retie jolynn's hair cause it was damned pong and then tied sheryan's hair because the kinki trumpeter sos cannot tie it. so i ran[yes ran] up the stairs to tie it up and was called expert by the kinki ppl up there. '-.-

me and em had to go the front of the stage to receive the gifs and give the gifts frm and to the kinki-ans aft singapore experience before stars and stripes. so were rehearsing that part and em? i think she got quite a few bruises frm me because of him-that-she-likes. haha. then went back to hall.

like we were 'swarmed by ppl asking us where and when to go with or without their instrus. mannn. we were out!!! but ya. haha.

went to watch the display, super lihai neh. haha. the drum major got nice hat.Xp okae that's crap, but ya. haha. and the shadows were damned nice.

then went back to prepare. got instru, went down to concert hall area. uhh. well, got kinki ppl changing, so we were like turning on way, Xp haha. went on stage. played and went back down. yep.

then went waited while the kinki high played. super cold. jumped ard and ran to the toilet with geko. without court shoes on. haha. went back and put on shoes backstage and kena called obscene by yixin. aiyo. what's wrong with wearing shoes?

went on stage with kinki high. played, went back out. then went to audience area to watch kinki uni. em couldn't see her-one-whoim-she-liked. went back back stage, saw him-who-em-likes carrying a horn.so ya. he plays a horn. all throught he two days, i was wondering who was the last hornist who i haven't met? and well found out there. yep. and went on stage with kinkis played. and got encore. yep. nice encore call... errrrr.... clap.

went off stage. cleared up, went to lobby for farewell party. took photos with everyone and took photos of kinkis outside hall. gave part of the section the pebbles and they thpought it was sweet?! yep. then yukko realised it was a pebble. haha. good good. went back to lobby and had farewell party. yep. gave the pebble to the rest of the section except asahina, cause he wasn't there and they gave me this two snacks frm this shop 99 and they taught me how to pronounce. hurrr. forgot how to nehhh. T.T ahh. then asked them to write down their names. yep. last missing hornist was asahina yasuhiro. yep. so i got like this whole list of hornists.

nara atsumi
aoyama tomomi (buriko)
kohei takami (nobi)
yanagimoto nana (yanagi)
shin tamai (ako)
yukiko arakawa (yukko)
akinori yamashita
satoshi fukui
nobuyasu morita (tamo)
yasuhiro asahina
miyuki noguchinara

yes. there's ELEVEN!

then i went ard the table giving out the pebbles la. din realise i made like damned so many. haha. then followed nana go give the hornist who was wandering ard the place. follow her follow him follow until like half the place then managed to pass a pebble. haha. walkedf the half of the place back to the table. -shakes head- haha. was crapping like xiao. haha. caught someone being gay. shall not say who, but nearly died trying not to laugh.

then was so sad laaaa. had to go in like 5 min liao then they[those left] also had to go soon. haha. then i hugged them la. haha. i hugged atsumi 1st, then she was shocked. then i hugged yukko. she was even more shocked. then i hugged shin. then all three were shocked like nuts. haha. then shin and atsumi began calling each other 'playboy' and 'playgirl'. haha. was wondering what the heck going on. haha.

sniff. then left!!! T.T haha. tripped on the way up the stairs again. =x suayyyy. haha. went back to hostel, everyone was going on abt how we missed kinki. haha.

went back, jan had an asthma attack which lead to hyperventilation. good thing ms ang was there. really go thing. well, now i know what to do if that happens again. janice got sent to the hospital. they din allow me to go with her. hurmph. well, we[me and hwee geok] were rushing through our dinner to go take care of jan before the ambulance came so emily and liling could eat. was really scary. everyone in the room were like damned freaked out?

well, me and liling went over to the sec 4s to chat with zhiqi. actually is they chat, i lie there listen story andlaugh. Xp wanteng and jolynn were in the cupboard duno doing what when ms low came in and erm. you know. ya. haha. then theresa was waiting for zhiqi to slp so she wouldn't be the 1st to slp, pt was trying to 'chase out' liling. haha. shermin was crapping like nuts and i was just there laughing like xiao.

well, em came in and announced that JAN WAS BACK and liling was rushing so much she tripped over pt's[?]lugguage. smart. but the whole room were really glad to see janice again!. =) take care girl!

6 june

loads of fun. usj day.

got on the bed the wrong side the day before. figure that out yourself

em-san, jan-chan and me? we went nut case. were uhmmmm... 'disgracing' ourselves all the way. haha. shall not elaborate.

haha. went shopping? haha. then played in this peanuts place. haha. kawaii neh.

haha. all the rides we took we were screaming for the sake of freaking everyone out? haha. no such luck. ouh. near the end of the day, we only took 20 minutres to ride spiderman twice and we heard frm ms low that they took more than half an hour to ride once. wahaha. were laughing at them. Xp ouh. and janice became righty, me became lefty. yep. really nutty.

wel, went back quite late, aft having dinner at macs. their macs is terrific man. really terrific. yep. hmmm. went back by train. packed. still on the wrong side of things.

7june

woke up, thought i was dreaming that alarm clocks were ringing when they were really ringing. wells, too bad. took ten years to wake janice, liling, sheryan up. haha. was really groggy. still wrong side of things.

yep. emily was being depressing. until we heard on the bus that the kinki ppl might be at the air port to send us off, everyone cheered except me, cause as usual, i didn't know what was going on. -.- when i knew, haha. quite fast reaction. wrote out a paper with my contacts and the sch's address.

reach airport6, em nearly crushed my finger. sad case. sniff. well, there was only toki and asahina, but that's not bad liao. yep. the band was not bad. yar. haha. duno they trying to show off or is really one, all really worked tgt. haha. well, keep it up ppl! haha. passed the slip of paper to asahina to pass to the section. well, aft we checked in our stuff etc, which was damned fast? got plenty of time to go shopping, i suddenly very sleepy, duno why. must be because everything finally slack liao. and emily duno what's wrong with her, want me say sth to asahina, so i went 'arigatoh. you conduct well[no offense meant]'.

so was practically sleep walking most of the time sam,emily,wenjun,janice,hweegeok,sheryan,liling,jerina and me were following toki and asahina. ya. sat at a cafe, would have fell asleep if not for disturbance. and nearly everyone was coughing cause of the smoking area behind us.

nearly fell asleep walking ard aft they eat and drink. and yes. em saw a manga haven. and i got a TIEPINNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!! wahahahaha. their tiepin is so damn nice! haha. emily didn't kill me though. thankiewww!

went on plane, sleep like damn long. woke up to watcvh hitch and coach carter and went back to sleep.

that's ard it. so ya. sum the trip up. damn fun sehhhhh!

gtg liaooo. T.t i miss kinkiiiiiiiiiiii1 i';m waiting for their emailllllllllllll!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-05-30T21:14:00.000+08:00

from the case file of enjia's life

erbx. ms low was being damn lame as she was making her 'speech'[as usual] yar. and she was telling us all these stories of when she went overseas with tk and with her friends etc etc.

combine. can die. the most impressionable are: japanese graffiiti, stars and stripes and singapore experience. hurh. japanese graffiiti, died at 'dixie' couldn't count!!!!!!! O.O, sniff. kept counting wrongly. hurh. stars and stripes? cannot catch the rhythm. T.T hurhhhh. must focusfocussss!!!! singapore experience? hurh. died. played theme with euphos for the front, then at [1], i was left playing alone and i thought they pang seh me. then play play play, until the end, cannot reach the high notes liao. T.T hurhhhhhh. sniff. ahh. and fiefoerniek. at [m] i pang seh the euphos. Xp haha. then i was listening so intently i missed my 3 bars beofre [n] T.T heh. then i was wondering why no one play one? then it end liao then i realise is i play one. haiiii. today was quite bad. tmr? must fcus focus focus! yep!

don't be afrain to play out. and even if you are, don't make someone who's not paying your part to play with you. learn how to play alone. it's alright. i learnt how to really play alone today. and my alone was more alone than yours. yours was at least with ppl with the same sound as your. mine was totally alone. so think about it. and be acoustomed to playing your part alone. i played my part alone since i have no idea when and it's high time you learnt how to too.

i stupidly went and read agn. and got my heart broken as a result. every time i read, i'm hoping you'll talk to me. you never do. it's really shattering me to pieces. pieces that can be put together, only to be shattered again the next time when the same thing happens. now, it's only held together by string. but where is my super glue?

2005-05-29T22:13:00.000+08:00

from the case file of enjia's life

i love my mom! haha. i asked for ten minutes on the computer she gave me 25 and it's running out. or is it out already? xp well, heh.

i'm trying to forget. they say the more you ry to forget the more you'll rmb. so i turned to rmbing. it doesnot work. i'm still rmbing and rmb more some more. i don't know. i don't know why everytime i tell myself, i'm not going to read x's whole nickname in msn. and then i stupidly go and read it. bring me away from all these. please? don't torture mo anymore. you're getting closer to getting your girl and i'm trying to leave you, so don't do anything to remind me of you. thank you.

2005-05-29T15:20:00.000+08:00

from the case file of enjia's life

blardy scanner is going against me just as the blardy phone is. hurmph. i'm not bothering today! hurmph. sad. still haven't got certain recordings and japan trip is this coming wednesday!!!!! yeeps. and i haven't gone ikea yet!!!!!!

2005-05-25T22:52:00.000+08:00

from the case file of enjia's life

not much time left on the computer, so strt t e pt. failed a math and english, so fail overall. but music and combine sc[phy and chem] quite high neh. the only Bs in the whole results. ann c and d only 2 b. sad case. mustmustmustmust work hard. MUST!

must really prepare for jap trip. yep. eyes tired liao... T.T well,s kaili's bringing fb 5&6 tmr[hopefully] Xp well hooe so. and tmr got band. so yar. really worried will screw up jap trip. well, can't be that paranoid. must work hard!

2005-05-22T12:21:00.000+08:00

from the case file of enjia's life

I made a Quiz for you! Take my Quiz! and then Check out the Scoreboard!

wahah, that was abit boliao, but take it take it!!!!! ahah. Xp

2005-05-21T22:21:00.000+08:00

from the case file of enjia's life

sniff- itching al over. like damn itchy larr!!!! sniff-

slept until 6 pm frm 12 am

abit overboard, but who cares?

you're giving really mixed signals. the ship is hesitating as to go away or to go nearer, for fear of the rocks.

2005-05-20T22:19:00.000+08:00

from the case file of enjia's life

just back frm OBS not long ago. yea. later using the com agn. now no msn. ><..
day 1 --
went pulau ubin lar. 1st day split into watches. me in yusof. yep. did belaying, pitch basha[i didn't], and alot of stuff ouh. we had 4 meals a day in the cook house lar. heh. we lucky. are residential. yep. tired tired, still have to slp out doors. yah. instructors - uncle liew, shukor, ai chin, su xian. watch - amy, xiangmei, eileen, zesa, debbie, delia, fayanne, aiesh, yu xiang, ethel, marsha, wanting, elizabeth, christine.
day 2 --
woke up like 6.30 lidat, my whole watch clear out liao, then aft that ppl frm other watches who woke up just left lar, so only left 5 ppl to unpitch the bashas. yea. me, bertha and 3 frm kimseng[?or kim san?]. did some stuff in the morning, can't rmb. but at night, we did kayaking[in the swimming pool by shukor], abseiling[on land by su xian], first aid[by uncle liew] and rafting[by ai chin]. slept in bunk. met sam's and emily's watch. nasty cut on her ankle[get well soon].
day 3 --went rock wall climbing. cannot make it. wait ten thousand yrs before can go climb. yar. was sleeping while waiting. was doing with xiang mei, amy and gen. was very freaked out. gen was my belayer. was panicking and very scared gen accidentally let go. afternoon went to the ramp the kayak, but one of the mobile watches took the kayaks we carried out[causing us to have to carry out agn] and also took up so much time going out and kayaking away that we could not go out. but also nvm. cause the weather turned nasty then, decided not to go camp 2[we going to kayak there] since we were quite woried about the weather, tide, current etc etc. had the bashas near the flying fox[lijin's watch was there also]. ouh. we met her watch near the new learning room, then jerina alsoo. yea. cooked at the indiana beach. cannot make it. one fire take ten thousand years to start. got 3 fire. i tend one, fayanne tend one, nearly everyone else tend one. the watch was very nice lar. cause aft they started eating, me and fay were stil handling the fire etc. then the watch when they realise fay and i haven't eat, gathered some food for us lo. thanks ppl!
day 4 --woke up on hard rocks. free massage, what to do? the bashas are on the rocks. who cares? Xp ate peanut butter bread. me and ethel were putting peanut butter on the bread. put very little cause usarin's watch not enough peanut butter to go round all four loaves of bread. in the end we ended up with alot of peanut butter left. Xp aft that went to collect the basha equipment frm the flying fox place. yea. dark, but still can see. went back, packed in ponchos.went kayaking ard the whole pulau ubin. 22.5 km + all the extra distance we went side tracking. kelly was my partner. very fun though tiring and fustrating. those at the back, including us, were quite pissed with the front for not waiting for us. and having breaks that end just when we catch up with them. were very tired lo. then en and fengy's kayak was pushed towards the rocks at opne point when the eather turned nasty. then was very scared for them and we were all very worried. very scart though, to see them moving towards the rocks and not be able to do anything. stoped at a sandfly infested beach to wait for the sky to clear abit. then carried on.stopped at frog island, met lijin's watch agn. ahah. so got yuan2. ate lunch and set off to cover the rest of the distance. ot this part at the turning pt the waves very wierd and was very strong. kelly and i we paddled like nuts and got across quite quickly. but inside flood water lar[good thing at frog island got empty the earlier waters]. covered the rest of the distance. nearing the ramp we set out frm, the winds and waves were very strong, but yar. everyone was encouraging each other and i was sorta nagging at kelly to 'keep paddling' 'don't give up' 'focus' 'hurry' and alot alot of other stuff.ouh ya. was pissed at the speed boat for speeding past us alot of times and causing unnessacary waves. went back, had dinner at cook house.went for night walk. su xian and uncle liew very lihai at lying. they said 15 mins only, no solo walk in the end had solo walk. liling and i were holding hands all through the walk when we walked as a grp. cause liling was quite frightened. i sawthe branches etc as kayakers lar. went to the jetty and it was swaying and like boat lidat, like can break off lidat and sinthu was not helping at all and making it worse lar. went to bunk and plonked down and slept.
day 5 --wake up, pack abit, ate breakfast, still swaying. went clear stocks, flying fox.fun seh. go up the tower can die though. drop down very fast, and very fun. then help push ai chin to the left and to the right to collect the ppl who come down. at the last few i was helping to collect the glider and put on the floor. 1st one drop to the floor. second one. didn't drop on floor. drop on my head. 3rd opne, fine liao. ahah. very pain, but very fun. Xp then liling took over. heh. she suan me la. Xp went t change to shorts and SANDLESSSS!!! ahhh. sandles very shuang.went to the souvenier shop, bought a polo t, 2 t and 1 pin. 50 bucks la.went to eat, best meal in the whole week. think the cook happy we leaving, cook nicer one. Xp ahah. went t new learning room, hear shukor and ai chin talk alot agn.then go homeee. we were on the boat, then uncle liew, shu xian and ai chin were on the stairs la. shukor was in the boat also. then someone wanted to take a picture of the instructors on the steps and ai china was so damn lame la. i'm not surprised if she blocked the other 2 frm view. Xp

haix. now everything still swaying like on a boat lidat. shall sleep soon though. Xp otherwise cannot tahan.

why aren't you here to receive me?

i forgot. you've got your one. and i'm going neutral.

2005-05-15T21:41:00.000+08:00

from the case file of enjia's life

hyperventilates. tmr's obs. sniff- by computer! by electronics! by anime! sniff- hi strange place. Xp

2005-05-15T16:48:00.000+08:00

from the case file of enjia's life

wells, it's sunday. tmr's monday and WE'RE GOING TO BE SHIPPED OFF TO PULAU UBIN! hurmph. OBS starts like tmr and i haven't gotten everything? wells, it's quite sian to pack last minute. Xp but what can i do?! [uhhh plenty?]heh.

i'm really trying not to think of those stuff that are really heart wrenching. well, you might thinki you know what's it, but it's actually sth else, so yar. dun bother. i'll be fine in time to come.[i don't say no time because it's not going to take so littls time to be ok] huh.

this [^] is not supposed to be read, so please don't read it. if you eant to read it, well, i can't do anything. but please don't bother. thank you.

i'm really missing the time i spent with you. though it's not much, but' it's quite a load full of fond memories. fond memories that are not easy to get rid of. yes. i'm trying to get rid of those memories. and to forget about you as anything else other than what you're supposed to be. your messages are unclear, so i think it's best for me to leave. leave as in forget you as anything else other than what you are. not leave as in forever goodbye. cause if i do that, you'll know that i'm talking about you and that is one thing i cannot endur. for you to know and for it to be awkward between us. really hope to forget you as anything other than what you are and just live my life as before i met you. since i met you, i've really changed. more open, more uncold, more feelings showing. before i did, my heart was hard. i had a blank face which nobody could understand. i closed myself from the rest of the world. i never smiled. i never laughed. i never told others how i felt. or what's going on. when they asked what's wrong, i just shrug them off and walk away. i want to be the enjia i was before. i don't want to be the new enjia. i want to shrug ppl away. disassociate. not laugh. not smile. walk away from everyone. have a heart of steel. have an unphantomable face. i don't want to be who you morphed me into. i don't want to be like you. i want to forget though i miss you.

you can happily go and decipher. yarquite easy to. but still, it's an effort on my part to cover it up. so yar. don't try to decipher it.

'adeus belle morena'

ladedum. i don't wanna.

fear

2005-05-13T20:57:00.000+08:00

from the case file of enjia's life

sometimes, it just takes some courage to speak out. if you have anything to say at all, to whoever it is at all, the best thing is just to spit it out. really. even if it's going to hurt you, or the person you're telling to, it'll always be resolved. one moment's disappointment is better compared to an eternity of wondering. it's always better to know and be upset than to not know and be upset.

well, if it applies to you, try telling it out.

infered this as i realised that alot of ppl are not really talking abt stuff that they're wondering about sorta thing. yar. it's self damaging to keep it to yourself actually. therefore, talk it out. it's always better.

well, one and 1/3 movie, class photo, see ms low, obs breifing, band. that's today's itenery.

yep.

wells, one movie. sth abt these choir boys. delinquents, but nice vocals though. think is les choiretes
movie 1/3. zai4 jian4 ying2 huo3 choong2. yep. the little sister kawaii neh. not like mine. XD

we went see ms low at ard 9.45, ended up leaving at 10.50 lidat. haha. he whole time talking about changes and stuff. yep. hur. ya. b4 ms low came, haha, we were playing 'musical[no pun intended] chairs' heh. me and priscilla sabo emily sit middle, right infront of ms low. heh.

went canteen aft that to do the room mate arrangement stuff and decide on who to help us while we're gone obs-ing.

damnit. nth.

anw, we drew up a list of 6 grps of 5/6

ahah. that's it. not. band prac then ms low told us that the muslims shift in with ms low, then can fit exactly. like -.- we were so dumb not to think of that earlier.

well, obs briefing was boring but informative.

lunch. went down with e and went canteen. then e went to find is to collect the originals and the photocopies. is went town with c. and e panicked. yes. and you freaking person can you jus return the originals [especially] right aft you're done with them? what's your problem going off to town with an original and photocopies that they needed?! e called c's phone to talk to is to ask her to bring it back. e was really trying to control herself. and she did. but i didn't. i got so pissed off i grabbed the phone frm e and started screaming at is over the phone[that's the first time i scream over the phone. at any rate, it's the 1st time i screamed in a long long time.] duno why, but just cracked up and started screaming at her and demanding her to come back. the bitch[sry. figure of speech] not only complained about having to walk to the band rm to return, she laughed summor. even aft i warned her that it was not funny, she laugh summor. some of these days, it's going to cost you. really. duno what came over me at that time, i snapped and screamd : 'freaking asshole' riht over the phone, right in the canteen, right in broad daylight, right in front of stall one. that person was happily strolling into the sch and to the foyer. really wanted to punch her face out and just yell at her at that point at the foyer. really.

band :
'sorted out the cupboard and it's really neat. yep. =) please don't mess it up, ppl! hah. the right stack is for the books and extra files and scores. yar. the middle right is for blue files and the middle left for stands and the left for cloths. front left is for oils etc and the 'repair' stuff. right front is for papers, pens, and what ever's there. don't mess it up please. thank you.
'ms low came in and talked for a half an hour on he japan trip thing.
'mrs chua came in and took us joyous spring. i figured out the rhythm on the spot right before playing and when mrs chua took, i couldn't play at all. like wtf. it's never happened before and esp not right aft i just got the rhythm. she 'shooed' us out to get our parts 'right'. went with bass clarinet. well, we plaed tgt and i sarked. really sarked. somehow i just kept playing the same wrong rhythm over and over agn. only got it right aft some time and it was simple rhythm. really feel like a failure then. really pissed off. can thikn the rhythm, cannot play. sarks. really sarks.
'couldn't play my counter melody during practise. and it's simple melody. really sarks. play like ten million billion times then got it right, only to get it wrong agn aft a while.
'went back to band rm. combine, mr chua take. cause mrs chua taking[?] janice outside. yar. went quite fast, but yar. the front rhythm can catch up liao. but come to the counter part, i really sarked. i got confused and ended up like 5 bars behind time. like what the heck is this?! 5 bars behind time and i couldn'tfigure out where the rest were or where i'm supposed to come in. just blanked out for sometime. sickening. other than the counter part, the reswt of the pc was ok, except for articulation problems[my tongue's slow. must really train up agn]. and tone problem. mjy horn does not sound like a horn. it sounds like nothing at all la. sickening.

was really frightened by how much i deproved. still am.

end of band prac, was a danger. got whacked by emily in the face. hurts. haha. must learn not to sit behind the beside her. yep.

went to stone bench to arrange new rm mate thing. yep results are out! erbx.

not. i'm not letting it out until they say we should say. haha. you won't know who the they are, so dun go pester everyone. Xp

ahah. nice neh. cracked our brains to figure where to dump the remaining few pl into the grps with less ppl cause the sec 4s insisted on having one rm. well, suit yourself. but just to let you know, we had a headache.

had a ride to bukit panjang with emily. [thanks anw!]

just talked to my sister not long ago agn aft a long long time and well, she was telling me abt her experiences in band and she went bonkers when was told i was cm. well, she practically screamed over the phone. yep. and she was imagining the whole house of 'cm's. hah. let's see.

its been a fake side of me you've all been seeing. i'm not what ou think i am and i am not as tough as you think i am. i'm not trying to contradict you, just to let you know that i am not all that tough.

for freaking ppl who are in the situation i mentioned abv[with the freaking asshole thing], please take note to change your attitude. thank you.

for ppl who are confused, welcome to the club. speaking is the main thing. but find one who'll listen to your problems and be emphatic. and who will understand and not contradict you like the below.

and peeps of these ppl, listen is the key. don't always contradict them. it makes it difficult for them to talk to you. really difficult. i've experienced it myself. just a few hrs ago. you know who i'm talking about

2005-05-12T19:59:00.000+08:00

from the case file of enjia's life

well, today had band praccccc!!!! aft one mth of missing my horn, i picked up my horn again today and my tone sarked like hell. really sarked. it didn't sound like my previous very nice tone at all. it sounded like a trumpet trombone. it sarked like hell. arhhhh!!!! very scared cannot get back my tone by japan trip!!!!!!

ouh. and japan trip, we'll be playing :

- singapore experience
- joyous spirng
- concerto d'amore
- fiefoerniek

concerto and singapore we playing as a combine band with kinki. the other two, we play as our own. and there's one horn, one sax, 7clarinets, 6 percs, 1? oboe, almost all flutes[reminding me of which : suiing's playing the piccolo! ahah. nice.] no t-bone, 3? eupho, almost all tpt and i think all tuba except lijin. yep. abit pethetic, but i believe we can do it and play our best. yep. so ppl, we must buck up and train up for the japan trip! those who are not going, you have to train up for whatever's coming up soon! =D ahah. jiayou ppl! add oil. but don't drink it. erbx.

well, thgey announced the commitee tdae, as i predicted. yep.

bm - emily
dm - priscilla
cm - enjia
qm - nicole, wani, melissa [there's one more frm clarinet]
secetary - genevieve
treasurer - [uhmmm]
librarian - sheryan and jerina
sl
flute - karmen
oboe - natasha
clarinet - sarina and ashikin
sax - yifang
lww - emily
tpt - wani
fhorn - melissa
tbone - liyanna [asl : hanis]
eupho - cindy
tuba - lijin
perc - priscilla [asl : xiangying?]

wahah. sry those whom i forgotttt!!!! plss tell meeeee!!!

ahah. jiayou everybody! and well, work hard!!! =))

bring back the nice nice tone!

and don't slack.

and bring back your tone and intonation!

ahah.

by the time yunheng and layteng finish screaming, i'd be deaf already.

anw, tmr got band for the japan trip go-ers.

ahah.

i miss my horn!

shoud i bring it home on friday though...

hmmm...

i don't know how it's and what's going on on your side of things, but i know that i'm feeling a kinda sth i've stopped feeling the day i hardened my heart to you. this is so as to tell you : i don't need you. positive. it's not a statement to console myself whatsoever. it's a true statement.

2005-05-11T20:39:00.000+08:00

from the case file of enjia's life

ladedum. changed the blog's bg color. and then the blog's bg numbers. okae. abit crappish, but yar. it's clearer at least.

brain cells decrease by more than half le. trying to crack codes. ehh. how you come up with these wierd wierd codes one?!

nvm. still thinking.

crap. tdae...... was the last paper and after that, we disappear frm sch!!!!. Xp rubbish.

a math. left more than half the questions undone/imcomplete. don't blame me. blame the paper.

rubbish

[brain cells decrease by half of more than half.soon, i'll be watching anime with a blank mind.ahah.]

ytd hist. did all questions except the last and it was 13 marks!!!!!! okae. my 1a i wrote 1 1/2 pgs then b,c,d wrote one pg. 4a wrote one 1.2 pgs, 4b wrote 1/4 pg. pathetic right? and that was a 13 mark quesiton and i din know what it was talking abt. it was saying sth abt 'police state' for heavens sake! it's not like ow ever said anything about police state before!

nvm. it's overrrrrr!!!

ahah. went sheryan house just now, help geko take photo. take ard 40 shots then take ok. take one erase one. ahah. what's your problem geko??? lidat take my wrist will weak and it'll shake and it's going to take twice as long to take. ahah. yar. took ard 1/2 hr to take? haha. sheryan was ebing smart : 'don't tell her when you're going to take' haha. the problem is she moves too much and it ends up blurred. haha. i was being mean and was going : 'sincereeeeee!!!!' ahah. say until geko very fan2 right? haha. sorryyyyy. Xp

then went ps eat. pastamania. agn. ahah. was quite sian. went orchard. yep. went ard hunting for geko's shirt and ended up in hereen. she found a shirt she wanted, but it was 69.90. like what the heck? haha. then sheryan and lijin both found a pair of earrings they wanted. and it costs 65 bucks. exxxx esp for 1 pair only! ahah. i was more practical, but yar. still too ex. ahah. I WANT A DREAMCATCHERRRR!!!!! ahah. but it's 20 bucks and abv. cause it's handmadeeeee. -sniff- exxx lehhh. -sniff- sad case.

ahah. i was telling geko : 'i don't think clarice will be in town. at least not in sch u. the day she comes town in sch u is the day i died.' ahah. sry clarice. ahah. saw her at hereen 4th level. then was giving that O.O face. haha. so far, everyone in our section was in town. except[maybe] shuangying, melissa, anikah and cheeshan. ahah. but maybe they were in town. ahah. sad case.

I STILL WANT A DREAMCATCHERRR!!!

ahah. sheryan and lijin very nth to do, whisperwhisperwhisper. whisper what? : geko and me look like couple. like what the heck? they two more like couple lei. hah. i'm not crooked leh. geko's not crooked also leh. whatever. hahx.

twinkle twinkle little STARRRRRRR. crap. haha

I WANT A DREAMCATCHER!

sianx. brain cells gone liao.

cannot think liao. and geko? you still seem despo.

ladedum. blocking you out of my mind. i don't hear you, i don't see you, you don't exist. ladedumdedum

2005-05-09T18:17:00.000+08:00

from the case file of enjia's life

muahaha. happy trying to read. and anyway, the tag board's under #4[under 3]

2005-05-09T17:17:00.000+08:00

from the files of enjia

wahaha. it's a lyric at the bottom. the grey area near the bottom. haha. really like. it. you can slowly go and guess who wrote it. -grins-you'll never believe it. Xp aha. that's lame. but agn, t's really meaningful.

-wails- why isn't it thursday yet????!!!!!

2 more days till exams end. hurm. Xp bio paper today. 2 hrs. i finished in 45 mins and slept the 1 and a 1/2 hr away. Xb hehh.